Before my current boyfriend, I'd only had sex or done anything sexual with another person during a disappointing one-night stand. Basically, I don't know how to be sexual with other people, although I have no problem coming by myself. I'm in my early twenties and feel terribly inexperienced. There are various reasons for my lack of experience: I'm shy, I have a lot of insecurities about my body, I've been more focused on school and work rather than relationships, etc.
I've recently started dating a guy that I really like who likes me too, but I haven't been able to come with him yet. We've masturbated each other, and I can make him come no problem. I enjoy what he does to me, but it doesn't feel like it builds, if that makes sense. He tries to get me to tell him what I want, but I really don't know or at least don't know how to tell him. I've told him I'm not experienced, but haven't gone into specifics--that I've never come with another person, for example.
Another complication is that I'm quite insecure about my chest, as it is very asymmetrical. My breasts are different shapes and the right one is about two full cup sizes bigger than the left; I have to wear padding in my bra so people don't notice. So I haven't let my boyfriend feel them or taken my shirt off in front of him yet. I kept my bra on the one time I did have sex. I don't plan on doing that with my current boyfriend, since I trust him and want to be and feel close to him. But if I did get fully naked with him I'd probably just worry about how weird I look.
Such are the facts of the case. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. It may just be a matter of being patient and learning to communicate with him and accept myself for how I look, but all that's easier said than done.
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