I m a 23 year old female,i m a virgin.I got married last month and my husband and i are trying to have sex but everytime i scream in pain and he just cant enter me.We have had oral sex a lot of times.I m well lubricated..i get wet on his first touch..he is really considerate and never rush things until i say its fine..we both never had sex before..he can easily put his finger inside but when it comes to his penis its hard..first time i screamed and he was worried that he did something wrong..next time i tried not to scream even though there was pain but at a time i felt like something is being ripped inside me and i hurt like hell so i pushed him away i think..i was not doing it with conscious mind but i pushed him..he apologized a million times for hurting me even though i m the reason..and now too i m resisting him whenever he tries to put it in..i feel so disappointed he is damn sweet and considerate i m the one who destroys everything..can i ever relax and let him do it??will i have a normal sex life??