I want to have sex with my fiancé but i can't handle his penis inside

I'm really depressed,I've cried so much over it,i feel like i'm not a normal person,like i'm incomplete,this is the worse feeling.I don't know what else to do.My fiancé (who is a virgin) and I are together for 1 year but we can't have sex,we tried so much,he first inserted his one finger then two fingers and it felt like my hymen broke because the pain was horrible and blood came out and we thought that the worse went away and now we can have normal sex but when we tried it was very painful again and i didn't let him to go even half way i don't even know if he went through because of the pain and my anxiety.He became nervous and sad and then his penis went down and i felt like sh*t.What would he think of me?He even told me that he couldn't be able to experience this one more time because it's becoming like a phobia to him,he said he can't see me that nervous and stressed because it effects him and his penis can't go hard and he isn't then able to insert my vagina.I drank an anti-stress tea,i drank wine,i thought those things would help me calm a bit,but nothing helped me.The thing is that I live in Balkan,in a country that is not very developed and everyone's is a bit shy to talk about problems like this with someone.So can you imagine my position?I don't know where to go for help,who to ask for help.My mom knows about this but she don't know how to help,she took me to a gynecologist and all she did was making me an echo to see my uterus and she said i was perfectly healthy and she told me to drink an anti-stress tea that she gave me and to drink wine.I don't know how to get away with the pain.I can't buy didlos cause they don't sell in my country.I want to make my fiancé happy,i love him and i don't want to stress him with my stress.What can i do? :(((((