I am on 115mg of methadone. I have been on it for five years and weaned down to 75mg going down 5mg every two weeks. Hit a wall and since i suffer from Bi-polar as well I had a complete psychotic breakdown that landed me in the hospital for three weeks started getting really sick , the sickness latested four weeks so the doctor started putting me back up. Now here I am at 115mg again and fed up. Seems like I am never going to get off this stuff! I wish I would've researched it before going on it.  I feel the withdrawls from dilaudid would of been less bad. Anyone have any advice besides to suck it up because I've tried  that for four to six weeks before telling my doctor I am going through hell. I don't know anyone else to talk to about the methadone to find out if I am the only one having this problem. Any help would be good. I have heard of people very few that have got off of it and stayed clean but not many but I don't know any that keep having to go up like me. I do not want to go up anymore but I keep getting use to my dose and the sickness comes back. This is awful!! Thanks for your help.