It's refreshing to see so many that are going through what I am now and that I'm not alone. I started by dating a guy who I thought I could save from opiates ha in the mix all I did was drown myself after being so disappointed in him for continually using over and over I tried it once to see what was so great that he would choose it over me his family his job etc. Well 4 years later and here I am in the boat he was. I was taking as many as 10 lortab 10mgs a day. I felt invincible on them with the energy to do anything and everything. Now due to my family finding out my dirty secret I have tapered off and have tried the suboxone strips 8mg however I only cut tiny slivers off 1 time a day. I haven't had any pills for almost 2 weeks now but I now an so nauseas and have the energy of a slug. I'd love to go out and walk to try to retrain my brain but I can't even will myself to get off the couch. I too am so disgusted that its come this far in the blink of an eye I have destroyed my trust with others, lost my job that I worked so hard to obtain, lost friendships and relationships and worst of all have let down the person who I once was. Any advice would be so appreciated I know that being strong is of utmost importance with this battle but I am so tired of being tired and spending each day reliving the last.