Hello. I'm new here and this is my first post. I'm addicted to t1's and have been on and off for about 12 years. I have been taking approximately 30-50 pills per day. Well, I'm now just beginning day 3 of sobriety and I must say this sucks. I have no one to blame but myself. As I post this I'm going through all of the dreaded withdrawals and I mean all of them. Keep strong people. You all have inspired me to muster up the courage to beat this curse. I'm tired of the pill counting. The tapping of my right pocket to see if they are still there. The constant rotation of pharmacies. The actual headaches that I get from the pills. This must end and end now. I will post with my progress. Wish me luck.
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Hello folks. First two days were rough. I'm not going to sugar coat that. On night 3 the restless leg syndrome kicked in and I didn't sleep a wink. As soon as the sun came up I fell asleep for a couple hours. Take it when u can I guess. My bowels are turned inside out and I'm taking pepto to keep me away from the washroom. I've called in sick the last couple of days. I need to kick this and unfortunately I am on my own. I feel ashamed so I feel as though I can't tell my wife. If my employer knew I'd be sh*t canned for sure. I have a small window to straighten out and I am determined to quit this for good. The night time is the absolute worst. Very sad and lonesome. Such a terrible addiction but if I can get through this so too can you. I am weak compared to others on this forum and yet writing here seems a bit therapeutic. Stay strong folks. Any words of encouragement are certainly welcome. I will keep you posted as to how it's going. Cheers to all of you.
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Thank you for your reply. Day 4 now and I seem to feel worse than I did on day 3. This is overwhelming. Trying to busy myself but I am sapped for energy. Once again up all night. Twitching tossing and turning. Nasty business this is. My head seems to be a bit clearer today. I am so pissed off at myself words can't describe. Dreading the long night that awaits me. Thanks
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Day 5 started out pretty rough. My head was in a cloud for most of the day. Went out for dinner with my wife and I was very irritable and certainly not hungry. The key to my success on this night was the booze. I had a bunch of cocktails and it put me in a pretty decent frame of mind. It also helped me sleep for 5 hours. Most of the flu like symptoms are gone now. No twitchy legs last night so that was a bonus. The accompanying insomnia and restless leg syndrome can make the best of us relapse. That has been without a doubt the hardest thing for me. It shall serve so as to remind me to never put myself in a position to have to go through this again. We shall see what day 6 has in store. I will say its getting better folks.
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