On April 13th my father's birthday will go on without him. He passed away in 1995 and every year I go through alot remembering him the way he was. I miss him alot and I take that day to myself and just cry and cry. My husband doesn't really understand why I do this. He says that my father is in a better place (which I agree) but that day is my time to grief my way.
When his parents died yrs apart, he never cried. I guess we all have emotions and deal with death our own way.