Feel like im stuck in this zone, feel like I'm unreal or something is missing, empty, goosebumps

I just odn't understand it. I have this problem, and I've had it for quite a long time now. Basically  I feel i'm on a high all the time, always feeling like energetic (but actually very exhausted), this light, empty feeling, empty as if I am light as a feather. I usually feel very excited, and high, like my mind if very clear, and when I get this feeling, I start to feel as if it's not normal. When I start to feel as if it's not normal, then i start to get doubts over my head, and begin to think... it's like i'm stuck in some kind of zone forever, not knowing what the problem is, rather...im always high and feeling as if my brain hasn't developed properly.


Also, my heart starts to pound, chest feels heavy when this happens, and head feels so sore, immensly sore, I get this feverish feeling, like goosebumps all over my head and body, cold sensation, it's like cold and hot together, I can't explain it properly, it's like a lethargic yet, very energetic, confused between what I really am. I feel so high at times, when people are quiet I often ask why they are quiet, and think that I am insane, and so energetic for no reason.






I also want to point out that I used to masturbate at a young age, around 7 years of age, and Well, I feel as if I have corrupted my nerves because of this bad habbit from an early age, and that, one of my glands are exhausted or something, and I feel so high now that, I feel I can do anything, and not caring about anyone, not afraid, just acting like life is FUN..top of the world kind of feeling?


Would appreciate if anyone could share their similar stories, so I know I'm not the only one.

Lol, again, I'm sorry If I sound liek a freak but, I can't stop getting these stupid feelings, it's hard to explain.