Okay so I've read stuff about being HOCD and it makes sense to me like at first I thought I was that and I still do I mean I have always loved guys and wanted to be with them and i still do I wanna be straight and live life and be a fairy tail princess rescued by her knight in shining armour and trust me I want my own kids and a husband and I always have fantasies about it and dream about it since I was a little girl but recently I have thought what if I'm in denial what if Im lesbian and I don't want to be I cry sometimes to the thought of it and it makes me feel sick if I can never have the thing I always wanted and I love my gay friends they are lovely so I'm sure I'm not homophobic and I have never got butterflies over girls and I hope I never will but my mind is trying to tell me that I like them because of lesbian porn but now I feel like I crying all the time cuz it makes me sad and confused please someone help me
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Hey,
I feel exactly the same way. You shouldnt feel bad about it. You should try to let the thoughts fly by and leave your mind. Accept the fear and let it go. I am telling you it gets better. I know because it does got better for me(even though when sometimes i admire a girl over her outfit or if she is very pretty then it hits me again hard ) .
You should try some meditation.
Hope u feel better
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