Three years ago I was discharged from early intervention because they only see you for three years apparently. I was discharged back to my GP.

I have been taking a small dose of antipsychotic (5mg Abilify). I went to see the mental health team once after that because I told my GP I wished to come off meds so I got referred back to them. But I only saw them once.

I had a spending problem. The mental health team wanted me to take the med for at least another six months continuasloly (which I was not doing before) to see if it makes my issue go away. To be honest, I spend way less than I used to. So the issue has gone away. So indeed I may have schizophrenia.

 

But I find it hard to accept. Because it has been four years without a single psychotic episode. Also it was my only psychotic episode.

 

Why can't I just accept the fact that it will be back?

And my aunt who used to be something in mental health (a social worker) keeps telling me I have nothing, it doesn't help.