IM so very confused.

Guest over a year ago

So here's the deal. I've always liked boys, no question about it. I've had crushes major and minor ones and I've or was up until this happened been madly in love with this guy for three years, everything about him I loved. But since last December when someone asked me on tumblr if I was a lesbian I've been thinking I was one. Now lesbian and straight and gay porn turns me on but with the lesbian one its more of what's happening to them that like I can relate to not with the girl on girl just like the clit stuff or whatever. And before all of this I would have never even thought I was one even though I watched lesbian porn. Sounds gross actually, but like the sight of a lesbian couple is gross and also seeing two girls kiss is even worse for me. I've always wanted to be in a relationship with a boy and stuff like when I'm older and do all that cute stuff like for me to get dressed up and for me to fall inlove but with a guy never ever thought of it with a girl. Im hoping that its hocd but I'm starting to get so very confused, I mean I never wanting to date a girl even if I end up bi or lesbian which I don't at all want to be which there's nothing wrong it at all. But yeah, now I've like lost all motivation for everything like related to guys or just general stuff. Im always checking if I her aroused by a vagina but I don't. And I'm 14 and my mum keeps saying its just hormones and I believe it is but then again maybe its not? I want it to be a 100% I don't want to be a lesbian or even remotely bi in some way. But all these thoughts have confused my thinking and one minute ill be like I'm defiantly not a lesbian. Then a minute later what if I am? A year ago I would have never of thought that this was the case but right now I just don't anymore. I've never had feelings for girls or anything sexual either and don't think I will. I get aroused when kissing a guy and even hugging one aswell like when he's my boyfriend or something. I just don't know, I Hope im straight I'm 14 btw and its just killing me, I get so scared and everything. I don't like these thoughts, and I'm afraid ill never like a boy again because of this. Please help me

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sidrajoli277482 over a year ago

see ur mum is right ur just 14 and by seeing ur post i dont think ur gay its hormanal am to 14 and even i have the same thing exept there is a girl i love and sometimes i think am gay cause i hug guys and stuff

dont take this stuff seriously it happens to everybody

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Guest over a year ago

I know but its just eating me up inside you know? Like I don't know, I'm so scared and anxious and everything ahhhh:(

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Guest over a year ago

Omg I'm going through the same thing! Like wtf? One minute I'm attracted to these really hot movie stars and then a day later I look at him and feel nothing. Then I see a girl and I think she is nice looking and all that stuff but I'd never want to be sexual with her or anything. I've also had multiple guy crushes and now just don't feel anything anymore. I don't want to be no or lesbian. The thought of being with a woman grows me out. I have no problem with bis or lesbian or anything I just don't want to be one. Please help me I'm so scared I might lose every sense of attraction for guys. I've been crying and I'm shook up as hell about it. Especially cuz so many people in my school keep coming out by or gay/lesbian. I don't want to be next!

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superconfused over a year ago

Help!!! I have always been mostly straight, like I would have girl crushes but most of them were like I want to be them kind of crushes. Now I'm in college and I am taking a break from dating just because. I met this girl first semester and thought she was a pretty girl but nothing more than that. Then we started hanging out and she even spent winter break with me ( mind you she slept in my bed for a month on her own accord). I havealways been a ttomboy, I like sports and being fit. I usually take care of my friends when we go out and coming from a make dominant family I get irritated by girl drama and refuse to take part. So my real question is, is this normal? do others have this issue? Cause I'm really starting to doubt myself because I would totally take care of this girl for the rest of my life. We have been arguing lately cause I've been kind of in a weird mood and so we have been avoiding each other and blowing up when we try and talk but within 10 minutes we usually end up fixing the problem. This have been going on for a couple of weeks and I think it is me being jealous because at the end of the day this girl is at least a 9 ( yes I did just rate her) and everyone goes after her. Thank god she has no interest in dating/sex right now cause idk what I would do. I'm pretty sure that might break me.

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CindyR68106544 over a year ago

First off... you are 14... what are you doing watching porn of any type?
Second, you are not lesbian. You related to what is happening to the girl (it's erotic and sexy). You may also like to "watch". That doesn't may you gay.

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