Hi, this is similar to other problems I've seen on here but I would appreciate any input.
So, I'm worried I might be a lesbian. Or closer the lesbian side of bisexuality. I've always got off to lesbian and gay porn but never straight porn. I've never had a girlfriend but my ex boyfriend could never make me come however I still am attracted to men and want to sleep with them. I also felt so guilty I couldn't come when we were together so that increased the self hate. I don't know if I'm gay because I feel like I know how to get my body to orgasm by thinking about/watching gay/lesbian porn and feel like I can't orgasm thinking just about men. But maybe it just hasn't happened yet or I should try harder. Anyway, I like the idea of having a boyfriend. This has gone on for about two years and I've never ever told anyone about it. Everyone thinks I'm straight as a fence. I used to have a lot of self loathing over the whole issue but now I'm somewhat nearer to bring at peace with it. Either that or I've just become so exasperated I'm just accepting it. I just wish I had a clear cut answer and wasn't so afraid of everything. I feel like I can't tell anyone because I can't even explain/understand it myself. Maybe I should just chill, but it's hard. Maybe I'm just one of those gay people who just can't accept it. So what do you all think, any advice at all is much appreciated.
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