I want to share a very private & personal story with everyone about my experience that led me to conduct some much needed research on this topic but also proposes a very potentially serious hypothesis that could be detrimental to millions of other Individuals if it is not stopped now. First, I would like to start out by saying that I am a well educated person, holding three masters degrees and I have also traveled down many different paths in life, both positive & negative; however, the point is that I would take none of this back. There is no resentment. The way in which I view things now is simple...I have learned equally from the good and the bad. In other words, if I had not made some bad choices in my life or if I had not done any bad things, I would not know the difference and I would not be the person I am today. I took Percocet for 20+ years due to chronic pain and back surgery. I have had many different doctors and neurologists explain the possible reasons why but to this day I do not have a definite answer. One thing I am 100% certain of is this; suboxone or any of its derivatives do not ease or control pain. Any physician who looks at you and claims this to be true is lieing to your face. I will admit that toward the end of my use with Percocet I was exceeding the recommended daily dosage, looking for more, craving, and suffered from withdrawals. I was also in a horrible relationship at the time so perhaps that had something to do with it? I'm certain it did! In any event, my physician lied to me about the pain control and therefore kept increasing my dose on a weekly basis. Toward the end of my relationship with him, I decided to let him know that suboxone does absolutely nothing for pain and in that regard I really felt like he was lying to me. Prior to that point, he had me up to 20 mg of suboxone per day and then I decided that I needed so seek out help for my new problem, my new addiction; my new government controlled addiction. So I started seeing another doctor out-of-state to slowly ween me down to 8 milligrams a day where I currently am now. However, this ride Or this transition has not been a smooth one and has defiantly not been without other unnecessary evils. It has been almost a year and a half on suboxone and it remains that every day I suffer from pain. This pain has taken on other forms of despair that have slowly but surely awoken my spidy senses. Look, just because I'm on suboxone doesn't mean that I am not as smart as you or that you need not worry about me because yes my cravings are gone but I'll just be sittin around drooling on myself all day. That's right, think again!! So what are the minor concerns of root problems? Well, first but far from least important; taking suboxone seriously interferes with ones ability to rid the body of its waste on a regular schedule. More blatantly, it's merely impossible to go "Number 2" without inducing it or waiting up to two weeks to go it alone. Just think about the problems of that for a second. Our bodies rely on a certain balance in order to function properly. If we are carrying around additional baggage for a couple of weeks that should not remain in our bodies to begin with...what will happen? Well, I can personally tell you that I am contatsntly constipated, swollen, gassy, & in pain all of which can lead to a very irritated person by the end of the day. My joints get very achy and stiff, my abdomen swells with pain, my legs balloon up to the size of tree trunks and my feet feel like they could turn into flippers. And all of that is on a good day! So yes the cravings are gone but I truly believe now that this is nothing but a mere mind game that for those of us who were used to experiment on are viewed as mere addicts never again capable of living a normal life. Second, for 42 years of my life I demonstrated very healthy dental habits and during that entire time also never had a dental exam resulting in any teeth decay or cavities. All of the sudden, after this period of time on suboxone I have to have all of my teeth removed and obtain dentures. I could not explain the reason why parts of my teeth were starting to chip and on occasion a tooth just fell out to my surprise until I did some research on this subject. I cannot help but wonder what will happen next? My body aches every day and I now have to obtain dentures so what next? What caught my surprise was when I was watching the news the other day and heard that President Obama signed something to advance the use of suboxone even more. My ears perked up and my interest immediately focused on this as the wheels in my brain began to spin. Now, from what I know about Obama, what I have heard about his policies and how he does not have the best interest of American Citizens at heart; I cannot help but wonder, "What does he know that we don't know?" What is the hidden agenda here? I am certain of this, I continue to suffer, I want off suboxone, and I'm determined to help others in any way that I can. Oh and by the way...I never tried heroine!
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