Man - there is so much to learn and know here - I wish I took the time to understand it before I got myself into this mess - but I guess this is just not the way it works.I have read so many threads and no two are alike and none exactly like mine - so I am asking for advice here.

I have been using Oxy for the past 14 months. Started with a script going through cancer treatment and it was hugely valuable(@ 100mg a day) in getting through day to day radiation and chemo - it was certainly worth it then.However, given myaddictive personality - I did not stop when I had the opportunity to tapper under prescription. Instead, I found a source and was using between 60 and 150 mg of Roxy for the last 4-5 months.My supply would get thin once in a while and I would only have 30 mg for a couple 24 hour periods and start to go in withdrawal. You know the drill... felt like c**p - but moreover - was useless and incapable and uninterested in doing anything or even communicating. My mindset felt like everything was a chore. Scared the hell out of me because I have a family and no one knows about my issue (other than my PCP and counselor) - so I figured and know I need to work to detox as carefully and quick as I can.Form my supply guy - I got some Methadone and it was suddenly a new world of getting back to feeling myself. I took 30 mg that first day - a few weeks ago - and the next day was awesome - just getting back to feeling myself - feeling like I was and am on a path to being myself again. Now that I have read and learned the issue and more about Methadone. I am scared again. I need to complete getting my life back and have no interest to stay on any medications. I went to a meth clinic to get advice and was amazed how much they push to want to get you an a daily dose for a long period of time. Man - that's just not me..So.. NOW- I am on 10 mg a day of Methadone for ONLY the last 2 weeks with no more OXY/ROXY, no alcohol, nothing else and looking for the best advice to get to 0 - as comfortably as possible.   I figure the longer I wait the harder it will get - yes??

I am so ready to end this daily conversation ASAP. Thank you in advance for your helpful thoughts on this.