Hello everyone i am 33yrs old w/3 kids and a loving husband & i have been on Methadone for 4yrs. I take 4 10mg. a day every 6hrs for pain.I DO take as prescribed by my pain clinic.Now i had a spinal fusion in 07 and it failed and come to find out he(the surgin) cause me to end up with chronic servere nerve damage & as of now im also DX with osteoarthritis in hips and back,chronic pain,fibromyalgia & DSPS (Delayed sleep phase syndrome) are sometimes called "night owls." They function best late at night and feel drowsy and lethargic during the day(i just do not sleep right or vary well). So anyhow i have been on vicodin,percecet,oxy,opana er  & morphine.....AND NONE OF THEM WORKED!! So i finally found a great pain clinic that was nice to me and also started me on the Methadone 3,10s aday for the 1st 2 years and i loved this place i could accually do things with my kids again and treat everyone better and get myself out of bed every day...it is lovely=) they also had a really great PT that tought me no matter how much you hurt you gotta excercise even if its alittle bit,they also had a criopractor and some other high tech stuff that really helped me and i was finally doing good after 1 1/2 of searching and living in bed.Well my insurance dropped that pain clinic so i went to find another which i have found and they are ok they dont do the same stuff and of course they treat me like a nobody cause im alittle to young to be in pain....so they keep me on x3 10mg a day of the dones and i started to have alot of the pain come back and after a year or so put me on the x4 10mg a day and it has been good.Though i still miss the old clinic and i have flairs alot and bouts of anxiety come in(i have anxiety but not alot)so im not completely cured and i had a laposcopic surgery done @ beginning of the year so i stoped working out and gained weight from that and Lyrica that i do not take now,so part of this pain is not doing anything about it!! Anyhow my point to this hole thing was that i been on methadone for 4yrs and i know my body is use to it to the point if i do not have it i will Withdraw and i know how this feels cause last x2 christmas and thanksgiving ago they switched me from methadone(before they uped it) to morphine-kadians 60mg a day for a few mths and that did not work and i accually withdrawed(from the methadones) to the point i had to go to er...i mean i had all the symptoms with anxiety and heart palpatations and creepy crawly and no sleep being the worst,they put me on adivan that helped alittle,well then from kadian to opana er and i cant remember the dose on that but it was living hell cause i not only withdrawed still from the dones or the morphine im not sure ,and it did not help my pain i almost had an overdose!!! So they put me back on the dones and a few mths later is when i went  to the 4 10mg a day and stayed that way.But for some reason lately iv been feeling anxiety and been scared i guess if im going to be on dones the rest of my life??Omg should i try and get off and just deal with this horrible pain???I am so scared of withdraws because of the heart paputations and i cant hadle that and my family needs me too much.I like being out of pain!! Am i freaking for NO reason?? What if one day they just up and decide to take them?And i know they do not give a sh*t about withdraws.IDK i just go through this every once in awhile i guess i feel bad for taking them and the fact ill probably be on them the rest of my life...............Anyone else in this boat?Any thoughts???Am i doing the right thing in just staying on them???Ugh i don't know Pain or no Pain.................