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Hello ^^ I am a 15 your old female and I am not quite sure were to begin... For the past few years now I have had a passion for drawing, anime/manga (Japan animation and comics) and video games.
And all that was normal until I become so obsessed with the game Final Fantasy 8. It got to the point were that is all I thought about. Really! I hate to say this and not to sound weird....but with the characters I would think up everything. Draw them all the time, everything! I even RPed (role played) about being them! I would play out my one story with a friend, or by my self. I always do this. No one knows I do this other than the other person...once my mom found out and banned the game for good because she though I was too obsessed as well and it was causing a problem. And the weird part is I would always be the guy. But I am not gay, I like guys.
This hard core obsession latested about...a good 2-3 years until it finally went away when I lost my friend.
Then I moved on to something else to get obsessed with. It is a continuing cycle! I get so obsessed with these T.V. shows and it is not really a bad thing...but at the same time I don't know if it is normal. And it is only anime. Not real people. I had thought before it was because I am not able to get good friends. They always betray me. Or...I move away and loose them. I recently moved away from my home town in Canada 3 years ago and I thought that could have something to do with it. I have no family where I am now and no good friends either. I alway move. Once every year...and I am moving again soon. Though I am very close to my cousin in Canada

Right now, I am again obsessed with a T.V. show I was obsessed with before. (kind of embarrassing to say which one...) but it is YuGiOh. It is so weird. It is all I think about!! Like: what type of cologne would Yugi wear, or how would he react if... blah blah blah. And all my friends have to deal with this because this is all I talk about. I am continuesly surrounding my self in this. I have all the anime, some manga, music, the cards, everything. and I don't like it nor hate it. It is a good and bad thing? It is very hard to explain, so I hope I explained it good enough.

Do I have a disorder? or am I normal? ???

oh and I was so obsessed with FF8 that I was even crying to my friend about "what if I stop liking this game" and I am manly obsessed with mainly one guy character, or a few (which that I see as normal lol I am a girl, so :P)

can any one help? I am to afraid to talk about this to my mom...thanks.

If you need more info about it, then feel free to ask me. Thanks!

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I think you just hav to much free time on your hands and your mind just wants to be occupied with something.
I love ff8 too my faviorite character is squall. I was wondreing who was yours.
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hello Seiaku

you said that you move around alot and that you find it hard to make friends, and keep them too i guess. have your parents been moving alot since you were small? and how does that make you feel?
sometimes what children do when they feel that there is something 'wrong' (this could be anything from emotional neglect to al kinds of abuse) they create a fantasy world for themselves where they are a superhero or something powerful, because they feel so very powerless in real life (maybe powerless over moving away all the time)
thats why i asked whether you have been moving around for a very long time.
I dont think you have too much time on your hand, i believe you are trying to escape reality because it is too painful for you. (emotionally)
How do you feel about this or do you think I have read too much into your post?
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Sorry it took so long replying...

Well, yes. Ever since I was little I have moved. And it had always been painful. I do have time too much time my hands, but I am not constantly buessy. And I don't just have free time to the point were I know that this would just be that; I know there is something more here....I just don't know what.

I think you have a very good point, becuase I like this obsession, but yet it sets me down. No one seems to understand. And I always worry I am annoying people...

I guess I did make a little world for my self; it is like.....the characters I obsess over are my ticket through situations. I'll think "okay, do it for (blah)" or "what would (blah) do" or I just....I don't know. When I think of them, I can make my self go from angry/scared to happy.

And they flourish so much in my mined. I am constantly thinking about what I am currently obsessed over....

did this help? ^^;
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Well, there is such a thing than Asperger's syndrome. My kid has it. People with Asperger's tend to obsess about stuff like TV programs, books, or even weird things like train schedules. Maybe you could Google 'Asperger Syndrome' and see if you might have that profile.
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Reading what you wrote, it might be Obsessive Compulsive based too.
i say this mainly because of the obsession for TV/Game and the compulsion to draw etc.

However, it is noted that in OCD, the person doesnt really like the obsession they have, so maybe im quite off in what i said. However, its worth looking into.
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Hey.
i am just like you. Ive been going through cycles of obsession for years now. First was totally obessed with Narnia, i was sooo nerdy about it. I always hoped one day i'd find myself there and was convinced it was real. The funny thing was i had a real urge to make everyone see how much i loved it, my friends thought it was a bit obsessive so i satred to quiten down a bit. After a while a started to get bored of it, though part of me wanted to love it forever.

next i moved on to harry potter but that passed when i found out about Final Fantasy. I got into it through the game Kingdom hearts which i was also obsessed with. i'm still actually obsessed with FF, i make music videos of all the games. me and my sister love it, dont worry, we've done dress up too. I dressed up as Yuna from FFX and Aerith from FF7, like you, only we know about this. i am kind of obsesive about Cloud and Squall, they are so cute. You're not alone. i think we just have nerditis.

Thants what i thought until recently. Ive been getting bouts of depression for years now. Mostly about my how others see me, my body, and there was this guy i liked but he never looked at me like that. I think we are like this because the fantasy worlds we love are much kinder than the world we live in, that may be sad, but for me at least its true. Ive been having suicidal thoughts lately. Im in a depressed phase at the moment. i hope it passes. i hope this helps you.
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