In the past i have been diagnosed with a Dissociative disorder NOS. or, DD-NOS. I also had a therapist who suggested that in no certain terms it could be Schizophrenia.
Mentally i've had issues finding the words to say the things i want to say, I forget sometimes how to add and subtract correctly and need to make use of a calculator, Sometimes i say things in a conversation two or three times or state the obvious when it wasn't obvious to me.
Sometimes i obsess over things, everything down to the fraction of an inch, placement of items in precise ways, I wash my hands to the point they are red and chapped. Other times, i'm unconcerned with the way things look, the way i look or even how clean things are though.
I sometimes hear people in my head, not like actually "hearing" more like my inner monologue has become an inner dialogue. As though there is more then one of me and the other me will hold a conversation, sometimes the other me's have names other then mine, sometimes they are me but diffrent. I've catalogued about 13 others. Sometimes i see things like flashes of light or catch glimpses of people who i know aren't there.
I have delusions, on and off like i'm under strict surveilance and that there are cameras inside of CRT monitors and they can see everything i do. that distinct feeling of being watched, the hair stands up on the back of your neck and you are nervous and twitchy, that someone is after you.
These are the things i deal with off and on on a given basis. I'm pretty sure it's NOT Schizophrenia but there's that nagging voice that says it could be similiar. Most people who i've seen think i'm just "psychotic" and don't have a good diagnosis since it doesn't really come with depression or aggitation all the time. I'd say all in all DD-NOS is a good diagnosis. Question is what exactly does that mean?
I'd like to hear feedback, what do YOU think it means?
Mentally i've had issues finding the words to say the things i want to say, I forget sometimes how to add and subtract correctly and need to make use of a calculator, Sometimes i say things in a conversation two or three times or state the obvious when it wasn't obvious to me.
Sometimes i obsess over things, everything down to the fraction of an inch, placement of items in precise ways, I wash my hands to the point they are red and chapped. Other times, i'm unconcerned with the way things look, the way i look or even how clean things are though.
I sometimes hear people in my head, not like actually "hearing" more like my inner monologue has become an inner dialogue. As though there is more then one of me and the other me will hold a conversation, sometimes the other me's have names other then mine, sometimes they are me but diffrent. I've catalogued about 13 others. Sometimes i see things like flashes of light or catch glimpses of people who i know aren't there.
I have delusions, on and off like i'm under strict surveilance and that there are cameras inside of CRT monitors and they can see everything i do. that distinct feeling of being watched, the hair stands up on the back of your neck and you are nervous and twitchy, that someone is after you.
These are the things i deal with off and on on a given basis. I'm pretty sure it's NOT Schizophrenia but there's that nagging voice that says it could be similiar. Most people who i've seen think i'm just "psychotic" and don't have a good diagnosis since it doesn't really come with depression or aggitation all the time. I'd say all in all DD-NOS is a good diagnosis. Question is what exactly does that mean?
I'd like to hear feedback, what do YOU think it means?
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