i am trying to move forward from a horrible past. just pretending to be ok and unaffected by everything. people dont care about me, i have never been loved by anyone. trying to be strong, but fail sometimes. will i ever find inner peace or someone that will love me and care about me?
i might be to young to ask that, only 17. have never felt this lost. feel like jumping of a bridge and just die. it would all be so much easier for everyone, but what if it all got better. if i got a new chance, then i would not wanna miss it, i would wanna start over again. but still, what if im wrong, if things does not change or gets even worse. than i could as will stop it all here, right now. people just throw all their problems on me and blame every little mistake on me. im not made of titanium, i dont know what to do when people always shout and blame me for even existing.
sry, im probably wasting your time.
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Hi! You are definitely not wasting my time. I have an 18 y.o. sister and she used to have that feeling, she was even cutting hoping to find a big enough vein. I know that sometimes you just want to disappear, but if you did that you would be stuck in an eternity of guilt. If things look like they will never get better, why don't YOU try and make them better. My sister would always flip a b***h whenever somebody blamed her, so we started to tell her 'act nice to people and we won't blame you.' So if people are being rude to you, go against everything you want to do, and be nice to them. :-) (Don't be the disgusting nice, that never does good.) Once you are nice enough for long enough maybe they will see that they shouldn't blame you, and they'll turn around. If they turn around then just continue to be nice, and you'll be fine!! I hope for the best for you. :-D OK??
XOXO
PeaceToAll
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