my last day will be march 23, 2010 a day that will live in infinite as the day the I stood up and said i will not go quitely into the night, i wont lie down and let this drug defeat me any longer NO i wil ride out free of any man made substances and i smile in the face of my mortal enemy and escape this methadonian prison camp made by hitler's scientists during the final years of WW2 because allied forces had surrounded Germany and cut off their opium supply. oh yes , im sick to death of researching this awful substance and learning about it, studying it, talking about it im gone completly nuts like a victim ploting revenge on a bully or a boxer prepaing for a up coming bout i am preparing for a war of epic perportions. ill will post more crazy post as these next 11 days go by. please hit me up with your support if possible, it helps big time, ciao
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ahh another day almost done, im alone tonight, being anti-social is a terrible problem for me eh, i dont care bout going out on the weekends anymore or meeting new friends , i wonder how will that change after im done with this phase in my life. i used to be outgoing but that all changed when i got on methadone, now id rather be by myself. i gots no energy today, i went for a walk today but now its raining so im headed for a hot bath, im gettin these knots in my back and arms its awful cuz when it starts hurting it dont stop eh, just keeps throbbing. later
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aww its sunday now, my valarin root and sleepy tim tea is not working anymore last night sucked so bad i dont wanna drag this on another week, i want off this sh*t. dis morning a 5am i took half my dose for today it helped and now that i got a couple of hours of restless sleep im feeling ok im not gonna take the rest of my drink and come this tuesday im gonna see the doctor descuss just stopping this methadone a week early, im sick of it.
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so i drank the rest of my drink from sunday so i still got a whole drink left and im aspose to go to the clinic for the rest of my drinks but i dont want them i just want some clonidine, and maybe sleeping pills but thats wishful thinking, i just want off the methadone. my guts are killing me right now my belly feels all hard right now its hurting, but other than that its ok, will see. im ready for the next couple of days, i got lots of fresh fruit, yogert with probiotics and meal suppliments i even bought qcumder to put on my eyes to help with the constant tearing and stuffiness. its kinda exciting especially to think ill be free from opioids
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okay.... its tuesday and i just got back from the clinic and guess what my doctor wasn't there, so i gots no clonidine, awful. i wanted to just leave but i didnt, i got my last 6 drinks .... 1mg yippii! i think im gonna water down these last drinks, only take half of them each day, im so freaking close i just want off argh!! im drained or stretched like butter over to much toast.
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sup man just quit methadone its the start of my 4 week cold turkey im just now feeling better its a lot harder then i thought it would be you looking @ 30 days of hell going cold turkey..... anyways i quit @ the end of february now its the end of march withdraws symptoms are still here but not as nearly as bad as they were the 3rd week by far the worst week! just quit and be done with it i almost lost my job becase of this..... its not easy but in can be done im proof of that!
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i just drank my last drink im done im ready to start my detox and im so excited to be clean from this methadone poison. wish me luck.
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