If someone could find it in their heart to help me, I will thank you forever... your name will be immortalized in my mind and I might consider naming my firstborn after you. I'm only joking about the last part, however this is not a laughing matter for me
The topic says a significant portion of the odd problems that have plagued me since the day I can remember, which isn't that far off from 10, I have an incredibly hard time remembering information, especially long term information.
I was diagnosed with ADHD, possible paranoia, anxiety, possible depression, among others. I am constantly in a state of agitation as well as worrysome of others, not so much harming me, more along the lines of delusional thoughts of anxiety. No Mixed practice doctor/psychiatrist has diagnosed me with being hypochondriac, as I've seen many and it is their first thought until they pick my experiences.
I am constantly unable to focus, proven destructive in relationships except for the first few weeks of knowing someone. I have high blood pressure and trouble breathing properly. This feeling is constant without fail. I am generally in an out of body state where I can't determine whether im focusing on from one viewpoint or looking from above.
I am only 21 but cannot go on living with such an unproductive life, even though I've had spells (mostly with the help of medication) of crystallization and remission of a vast chunk of symptoms.
I know this is a scattered set of symptoms but nothing the doctors seem to diagnose and treat seems to work consistently.
I have been prescribed the following medications in the past and will rate the effectiveness on a scale of 1-10 short term and 1-10 long term (ST = Short Term, LT = Long Term)
Adderol - ST - 10, LT - 2. This medication has been the main combatant for me, however the success rate of the medication fades almost immediately after the first 3 days and I'm just sped up after that and significantly more irritable.
Cymbalta - ST - 0, LT - 1 (if that)
Abilify - ST - 0, LT - ?. I have tried to constant this medication but always end up extremely restless almost immediately before/at the set in date. I can compare this feeling to a chemical torture... I am extremely irritable, angry, and CANNOT stop moving. I have heard this is a side effect for a signifcant chunk of people and my next course of action is to acquire a medication that helps combat this issue.
Xanax - ST - 7, LT - 3. Relaxed feeling initially, after a short period of time I am significantly more relaxed but my other symptoms don't fade and I am still unable to concentrate/become irritable.
Buspar (current) - ST - 5, LT - 6. Relaxes me, helps delusions occasionally, however doesn't help me focus. Mixed with adderol for a significant portion of my medicated span and is the most effective combination, however the adderol effects fade (like above) and agitation sets in. I'm still extremely unhappy with my productivity and processing with this combination...
Self-Diagnosis:
Paranoid Personality Disorder
PLEASE HELP ME
Thanks to any that dare attempt
The topic says a significant portion of the odd problems that have plagued me since the day I can remember, which isn't that far off from 10, I have an incredibly hard time remembering information, especially long term information.
I was diagnosed with ADHD, possible paranoia, anxiety, possible depression, among others. I am constantly in a state of agitation as well as worrysome of others, not so much harming me, more along the lines of delusional thoughts of anxiety. No Mixed practice doctor/psychiatrist has diagnosed me with being hypochondriac, as I've seen many and it is their first thought until they pick my experiences.
I am constantly unable to focus, proven destructive in relationships except for the first few weeks of knowing someone. I have high blood pressure and trouble breathing properly. This feeling is constant without fail. I am generally in an out of body state where I can't determine whether im focusing on from one viewpoint or looking from above.
I am only 21 but cannot go on living with such an unproductive life, even though I've had spells (mostly with the help of medication) of crystallization and remission of a vast chunk of symptoms.
I know this is a scattered set of symptoms but nothing the doctors seem to diagnose and treat seems to work consistently.
I have been prescribed the following medications in the past and will rate the effectiveness on a scale of 1-10 short term and 1-10 long term (ST = Short Term, LT = Long Term)
Adderol - ST - 10, LT - 2. This medication has been the main combatant for me, however the success rate of the medication fades almost immediately after the first 3 days and I'm just sped up after that and significantly more irritable.
Cymbalta - ST - 0, LT - 1 (if that)
Abilify - ST - 0, LT - ?. I have tried to constant this medication but always end up extremely restless almost immediately before/at the set in date. I can compare this feeling to a chemical torture... I am extremely irritable, angry, and CANNOT stop moving. I have heard this is a side effect for a signifcant chunk of people and my next course of action is to acquire a medication that helps combat this issue.
Xanax - ST - 7, LT - 3. Relaxed feeling initially, after a short period of time I am significantly more relaxed but my other symptoms don't fade and I am still unable to concentrate/become irritable.
Buspar (current) - ST - 5, LT - 6. Relaxes me, helps delusions occasionally, however doesn't help me focus. Mixed with adderol for a significant portion of my medicated span and is the most effective combination, however the adderol effects fade (like above) and agitation sets in. I'm still extremely unhappy with my productivity and processing with this combination...
Self-Diagnosis:
Paranoid Personality Disorder
PLEASE HELP ME
Thanks to any that dare attempt
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hmmm, i'm not a doctor. i too have ADHD. the description of high blood pressure and difficulty breathing sound possibly to be a symptom of anxiety. i think that this may be related to stimulant treatment of ADHD. i find that i can become quite anxious when on my medication (however i take ritalin variants).
have the prescriptions been by different doctors? this could be a case of "the left hand not knowing what the right is doing".
have the prescriptions been by different doctors? this could be a case of "the left hand not knowing what the right is doing".
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nope, same doctor
I'm thinking that it's definitely a symptom of some sort of constantly cyclic anxiety, however it does not improve after the amphetamines have been discontinued. Therefore, leading me to believe that it's not relevant to the medication, just amplified after the short term effect has worn off. Buspar has helped calm the anxiety slightly but I still am missing a certain fluidity to my actions and thoughts and am still paranoid.
I'm thinking that it's definitely a symptom of some sort of constantly cyclic anxiety, however it does not improve after the amphetamines have been discontinued. Therefore, leading me to believe that it's not relevant to the medication, just amplified after the short term effect has worn off. Buspar has helped calm the anxiety slightly but I still am missing a certain fluidity to my actions and thoughts and am still paranoid.
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I have experienced some serious anxiety in my day, and I think that anxiety can produce paranoia. I would hesitate to actually diagnose you--but it seems to me that you may be OCD instead, as that can produce symptoms similar to what you describe. I would recommend seeing a therapist on this and trying a nice antidepressant like Celexa (which is a fairly gentle SSRI) and seeing how your recovery goes. I'm not a physician so this is just sort of general advice without knowing your full situation. Please let us know how things are going for you. I know anxiety is one of the worst things you can go through.
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Hi:
I sympathize with you so much. This must be very difficult for you. As I read you "diary" I did not see anything about counseling or relaxation techniques, etc. Have you considered working on your spirit? The meds might give some relief, but I believe that you need to work on your mind and spirit. Have you tried to develop some tools to help you deal with your responses to things? It seems that this would be necessary, in addition to the medicine. Try seeking out support groups for people with anxiety and/or paranoia issues. There are probably groups in your area. This way, you won't feel so odd and so alone in this. I think this will open up a new set of options for you. This would be my suggestion. I think that this might make a difference for you. Please let me know what you find out. We'd love to know how you are doing.
I sympathize with you so much. This must be very difficult for you. As I read you "diary" I did not see anything about counseling or relaxation techniques, etc. Have you considered working on your spirit? The meds might give some relief, but I believe that you need to work on your mind and spirit. Have you tried to develop some tools to help you deal with your responses to things? It seems that this would be necessary, in addition to the medicine. Try seeking out support groups for people with anxiety and/or paranoia issues. There are probably groups in your area. This way, you won't feel so odd and so alone in this. I think this will open up a new set of options for you. This would be my suggestion. I think that this might make a difference for you. Please let me know what you find out. We'd love to know how you are doing.
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I have to admit, some of those symptoms do sounds like OCD, a condition i suffer too. I have to stress i am not a doctor, but it might be a good idea to bring that up with a psychiatrist about OCD.
About that Abilify, i take such yet i have never experienced that problem you seem to have.
SSRI medication is useful to have which has already been noted. And for anxiety, i hear Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) is good for anxiety, though i have yet to try it my self.
About that Abilify, i take such yet i have never experienced that problem you seem to have.
SSRI medication is useful to have which has already been noted. And for anxiety, i hear Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) is good for anxiety, though i have yet to try it my self.
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Okay, I just joined this site so I could give you feedback on what has worked for me.
As everyone else has already stated, I am not a doctor and I cannot diagnose anything either.
I have had ADHD since the age of 9 and my symptoms have changed a lot since I have become an adult. I feel the symptoms have changed because my real life responsibilities and real stresses grew tougher.
When I am not medicated this is how I feel daily. Feelings of irritability, chest pains, lack of patience for myself and others, impulsive actions(like needing to clean everything, or do something productive), Harshness towards everyone- almost to a self centered don't have time to talk, your wasting my time kind of way. The most upsetting thing for me is my inability to cope with normal stresses. Almost a whirlwind of panic. A bad work week of commission could turn into thoughts of losing everything and freaking out until Im so angry that I cry- which almost feels like submission.
I am sure there are a lot of other feelings, but these ring the loudest to me. I wanted to share with you that I have been trying to evaluate myself the last few months to decide if in fact the meds are working for me because I still had a few bouts of panic while on meds. I have discovered that I am NOT okay without medication.
Here was my cocktail that my psych put me on that has worked years to my benefit, but with an occasional bout of anxiety. (I do believe from PMS)
20MG of ADDERALL XR with 100mg of Zoloft. The XR gives you a slow release all day long so it curbs the rapid push of meds in the beginning. Zoloft is for anxiety and OCD- BTW my doctor informed me that children with adhd usually develop OCD as adults. This cocktail has worked so well for me I have dramatically improved my life over the last 4 years. I got married, opened a super successful business, and I had a child. I signed up for this site just so I could share my story with you. I hope this helps you.
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