Hello, I have a question about my throat and not really sure what to do about it. I could be over-reacting and hope I am but wanted to see if anyone could share any insights. Ok, so I had been in a stressful job for awhile, my bosses subtly hinted that it was time for me to move on. I had a couple other bosses that subtly hinted that I should stay, this went on for about a year. I thought if I had supporters at work then why not, I'll stay because it seems at any job you have people for you and people against you. Anyway, things got intense, so I took a leave of absense. Upon coming back from my leave, I had to meet with my immediate boss for "feedback"as one of the other bosses described in the email. I knew the boss I was going to meet with did not like me at all. I wish I had said something came up and didn't go but I thought it was the only way to get my job back, hold myself out with the company awhile longer until I found new job. So I met the boss in the office, he did not let me get a word in, and it began, he told me that I couldn't perform the job at the expected level and one of the other associates took my role (a person who I trained). So this person who I worked very hard with the past year yelled at me for about 15 minutes while looking me in the eyes. I didn't want to loose my job so I just sat there and listened. (I wish I had got up and punched him in his face and then kicked him while he was on the ground) I'm not a violent person but honestly he was being very harsh. When he was done he excused me. I went home without a job and not much to do. I was very angry and stressed so I yelled while in my car at the top of my lungs trying to hurt myself. And I did. A few weeks later I developed a bloody lump on the back of my throat and it hurt to swallow. I gargled salt water and it went away although my throat is still soar. A few months went by and it got better but I can still feel some sensitivity. Worried that I"m not fully healing and worried that I did some serious damage I saw an ENT (Ear, Nose, Throat) MD, I explained that I yelled, he said no no you're okay so I left. I am still without a job and the stress is rising, I feel like a loser and I'm still angry for what I allowed my boss to do to me. Maybe if I get another job, which is difficult since I do not have one things will improve. Maybe the stress is causing my sore throat. If anyone has any insights or have been in a similar situation I love to hear how you worked through this issue. Thanks!
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