Day one and I want to die

The first few days are the hardest and then its mainly in your head... The craving are goin to be strong but once you see that you can get up and not have to have a pill to do so, it makes you feel alot better.... I know what you mean and what you are going through, I too have been on 30mg roxie's about 2 - 3 a day for almost 3 years now and 2 weeks ago had just had enough.  I laid in bed for 5 days didnt get up to do anything but sit in a warm tub of water to help with the pain.  I took alot of sleeping meds so that i just slept all day... I have 2 small children and had to have the grandparents watch them while I tried to get better.  I still have mood swings and feel like i need one alot of times but i get a scrpit of xanex so when i get that feeling i take one of them which helps.... The best thing you can do right now is get LOTS LOTS of sleep, take lots of vitamins... I took lots of vitamins the 1st week.... and try to drink alot, you are probably not going to want to eat much or i didnt... I didnt eat anything but 1 bowl of chicken noodle soup the whole 1st 5 days... Best of luck to you!!!!! Keep your head up and know that there is a better life out there! I'll pray for you!!!!