Hi, thought I was okay, until........started to smash dishes, uncontrollable anger. Feel worthless.....started to shout , then cry , shout , cry...then exhausted for all the frustration Ssshhhh....dont tell anyone!!!!!!! Then though, phone mum, she will calm me down.....so she does...and then asks the question....."Have you take that pill?...oh no, bother neither I have ...not for a few days and oh dear totally cant cope without it. What am I going to do????? So stayed at mums...took pill, had some clean living...good foood. Shhe looked after me.
Then , now home and feeling really isolated. Had some unbeatable news/cant decide if its good news or bad news. ( About to be an auntie again, but partner is with different partner...He is nearly 50) I dont want to be involved , at all. Anyway, so , partner in shock about it. Me, had diarrhea and cramps , but think it may be due to everything. Partner is trying to make my children bunkbed in my kitchen , Cant find clothes, lost my toe thing ( toe is painful) and makes me worse ie, more anxious when I walk.
Mum is due for hospital soon, and I know its not going to help.... I feeli I need her. Anyway, thats just life, I have to help her and all that. Not heard from my father in months. Its funny we used to be so close, but now I realise that it me that annoyed him all these years. Anyway, coughing up light green stuff that makes me want to boke. Part of a bug....( It must be a bug I have)
I am so confused, I feel like I am in bits, ,,,,family everywhere and people dont seem to care about people, not enough. Sorry, but the moment I feel preggers with my 2nd child I knew I d had my number ( if you know what I mean) anymore Id be hitting the roofs, scarping my body of the ceiling and oh...Dont get me wrong my kids are fabulous ...but good grief its as though these men are complete psychos???????????????????????????????????????????????
Oh, cant ewxplain....must go got the green boke( bluh!) Cough, cough, choke choke, gaga, gag. Someone take this yuck from me.. Its not right to cough up the green stuff. Its like the snot aint shuffling through my tubes and having to come out my mouth oh its yuck!!!!!!!! Feel sick!!!!!!! Anyway, this life is mad!!!!!!Just wanted to talk. Dont feel right, but calmer now I am back on tabs. Should I be informing my doctor or just keep going until I run out and see if I can go without?
Then , now home and feeling really isolated. Had some unbeatable news/cant decide if its good news or bad news. ( About to be an auntie again, but partner is with different partner...He is nearly 50) I dont want to be involved , at all. Anyway, so , partner in shock about it. Me, had diarrhea and cramps , but think it may be due to everything. Partner is trying to make my children bunkbed in my kitchen , Cant find clothes, lost my toe thing ( toe is painful) and makes me worse ie, more anxious when I walk.
Mum is due for hospital soon, and I know its not going to help.... I feeli I need her. Anyway, thats just life, I have to help her and all that. Not heard from my father in months. Its funny we used to be so close, but now I realise that it me that annoyed him all these years. Anyway, coughing up light green stuff that makes me want to boke. Part of a bug....( It must be a bug I have)
I am so confused, I feel like I am in bits, ,,,,family everywhere and people dont seem to care about people, not enough. Sorry, but the moment I feel preggers with my 2nd child I knew I d had my number ( if you know what I mean) anymore Id be hitting the roofs, scarping my body of the ceiling and oh...Dont get me wrong my kids are fabulous ...but good grief its as though these men are complete psychos???????????????????????????????????????????????
Oh, cant ewxplain....must go got the green boke( bluh!) Cough, cough, choke choke, gaga, gag. Someone take this yuck from me.. Its not right to cough up the green stuff. Its like the snot aint shuffling through my tubes and having to come out my mouth oh its yuck!!!!!!!! Feel sick!!!!!!! Anyway, this life is mad!!!!!!Just wanted to talk. Dont feel right, but calmer now I am back on tabs. Should I be informing my doctor or just keep going until I run out and see if I can go without?
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this must just be a bug. Just read that sorry should read.....partners brother is with dirrferent partner, and instead of feel preggers....should read ...when I fell...OMG............oh i dont know....doesnt make sense!!!!!!! Think I am going to be sick now..maybe ill get all the gunk out..................
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First and foremost use proper English. No offense but its impossible to get the full story with incomplete sentences and screwed up grammar. If its because English is a second language for you then okay I understand but otherwise...all I can say is your sentences are painful! So the bottom line is your an adult make your own decisions. Don't let anybody family or otherwise push you around. As for the symptoms you described have you consulted a doctor? I would have read the story fully but I couldn't understand a lot of what was said because the sentences were too broken to understand fully.
My main focus would be seeing a doctor to rule out anything physically that might be wrong. It does you no good to make assumptions about what it is when your assumptions could be wrong, so see the doctor. If its nothing physically wrong then consider seeing a Therapist. There is no shame in seeing one if it helps you to deal with your stress, anxiety etc. Anxiety can cause fatigue, diarrhea etc. I know because I'm going through something similiar which is how I stumbled on this web page.
I really think everybody could use some therapy at one time or another. Life can be very stressful and its no wonder we find ourselves overwhelmed at times. It also doesn't help when you have "old baggage" that you haven't dealt with coming up while dealing with current stress. I'm not saying this in a bad light. I myself have had to deal with old baggage in my own life and anxiety and stress. I'm married to a Navy guy whose family is Chinese while I'm just white. Its rough, sh*t comes up and I just have to figure out how to deal. Therapy really helped me to figure how to deal with life and my PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder)
You may have PMDD, even with birth control, it can be a problem. Also consider the birth control - the hormones in it could be messing you up or it may have nothing to do with the situation. The major focus should be see the doctor to rule out physical stuff. And regardless of what the symptoms are see a Therapist. I really think it would help you to put things in perspective, figure out if Anxiety could be a contributor and anything else that may be upsetting you. Remember the main focus is take care of basic needs first. You can't help other people if your not doing well. Take care of your self first then deal with everybody else.
I hope this helps. I will pray for you and just consider what I said doesn't mean you have to agree but just consider.
God Bless
SF
My main focus would be seeing a doctor to rule out anything physically that might be wrong. It does you no good to make assumptions about what it is when your assumptions could be wrong, so see the doctor. If its nothing physically wrong then consider seeing a Therapist. There is no shame in seeing one if it helps you to deal with your stress, anxiety etc. Anxiety can cause fatigue, diarrhea etc. I know because I'm going through something similiar which is how I stumbled on this web page.
I really think everybody could use some therapy at one time or another. Life can be very stressful and its no wonder we find ourselves overwhelmed at times. It also doesn't help when you have "old baggage" that you haven't dealt with coming up while dealing with current stress. I'm not saying this in a bad light. I myself have had to deal with old baggage in my own life and anxiety and stress. I'm married to a Navy guy whose family is Chinese while I'm just white. Its rough, sh*t comes up and I just have to figure out how to deal. Therapy really helped me to figure how to deal with life and my PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder)
You may have PMDD, even with birth control, it can be a problem. Also consider the birth control - the hormones in it could be messing you up or it may have nothing to do with the situation. The major focus should be see the doctor to rule out physical stuff. And regardless of what the symptoms are see a Therapist. I really think it would help you to put things in perspective, figure out if Anxiety could be a contributor and anything else that may be upsetting you. Remember the main focus is take care of basic needs first. You can't help other people if your not doing well. Take care of your self first then deal with everybody else.
I hope this helps. I will pray for you and just consider what I said doesn't mean you have to agree but just consider.
God Bless
SF
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