I consult a doctor and he said that this medicine for major depression not for those symptoms which you are describing.
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Hello,
My name is Bianca. I've struggled with high anxiety and depression for 5 years. Although you would never know it because I can easily hide so much of it. In highschool I was surrounded and drowned by friends and attention, but at night I would cry and pray so hard that if I could just be fully happy I would be perfect. The stuggle with perfection led me to diet pills, bulimia, and alchohol. I know its a form of OCD i have that makes me want to look and feel perfect and be in the perfect environment, but its gotten so much worse. A year ago I started taking this medication called sertraline. Its been working really well and cope with alot of my psychological problems. I was happy, had eveything and anything i wanted and still do, partied hard and even started dating my current boyfriend of 9 months he knows i take medicine but does not know about my harsh past. My best friend disowned me because she doesnt like my boyfriend and doesnt like that I spend so much time with him. I go to college at UHD and i havent made friends as me in my perfect world doesnt go along with that environment. Im transfering to U of H next semester and Im so excited, but the past month ive felt so out of control and emotional. Ive cried everyday for almost two weeks, and I feel so much anxiety and lonliness and isolation. My boyfriend started baseball season and ive barely gotten to see him. And everytime im with him I want all his attention and he recently said that i want to much attention and I expect to much. But I gave up my life for him. My friends, partying, night outs, even my best friend. Ive never felt so lonely in my life. I feel like he owes me his attention for eveything ive done for him. Hes the first guy ive ever had sex with, ever been in love with and want to marry. But were complete opposites. I like being opposites, hes laid back and chill where as im hyper and active. But at the same time I feel like he bores me sometimes or hes to laid back to show me all his attention. Im only 19 years old and I feel so overwhelmed and lately Ive been having disturbing thoughts of hurting myself. Ive made myself throw up the past 3 nights to help relieve stress and my OCD is eating me inside out. Im 5'3 and weight 114. I dont want to turn bulimic again but idk how else to cope. I nonstop shake and cry and idk whats gonna happen or whats happening to me.
My name is Bianca. I've struggled with high anxiety and depression for 5 years. Although you would never know it because I can easily hide so much of it. In highschool I was surrounded and drowned by friends and attention, but at night I would cry and pray so hard that if I could just be fully happy I would be perfect. The stuggle with perfection led me to diet pills, bulimia, and alchohol. I know its a form of OCD i have that makes me want to look and feel perfect and be in the perfect environment, but its gotten so much worse. A year ago I started taking this medication called sertraline. Its been working really well and cope with alot of my psychological problems. I was happy, had eveything and anything i wanted and still do, partied hard and even started dating my current boyfriend of 9 months he knows i take medicine but does not know about my harsh past. My best friend disowned me because she doesnt like my boyfriend and doesnt like that I spend so much time with him. I go to college at UHD and i havent made friends as me in my perfect world doesnt go along with that environment. Im transfering to U of H next semester and Im so excited, but the past month ive felt so out of control and emotional. Ive cried everyday for almost two weeks, and I feel so much anxiety and lonliness and isolation. My boyfriend started baseball season and ive barely gotten to see him. And everytime im with him I want all his attention and he recently said that i want to much attention and I expect to much. But I gave up my life for him. My friends, partying, night outs, even my best friend. Ive never felt so lonely in my life. I feel like he owes me his attention for eveything ive done for him. Hes the first guy ive ever had sex with, ever been in love with and want to marry. But were complete opposites. I like being opposites, hes laid back and chill where as im hyper and active. But at the same time I feel like he bores me sometimes or hes to laid back to show me all his attention. Im only 19 years old and I feel so overwhelmed and lately Ive been having disturbing thoughts of hurting myself. Ive made myself throw up the past 3 nights to help relieve stress and my OCD is eating me inside out. Im 5'3 and weight 114. I dont want to turn bulimic again but idk how else to cope. I nonstop shake and cry and idk whats gonna happen or whats happening to me.
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Hi I'm the same age as you and i have the samw problems i really need some advice bc I'm to afraid to tell a doctor..... is appreciate it my names Beth.
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you should get your thyroid check you sound like how i use to feel before i found out about what i had youll be ok once you find out
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i totally have this too ^^ im only 18 nd i just feel like its gettin worse and ihavnt gotten on anxiety medicine yet i need to do so.....Most people dont know how this really feels it sucks.
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Hi, I am 23 and I have feel most of the things you guys described, after a lot of reading and understanding I am "happy" that i least I think I know what I have, Anxiety, now I am trying to listen to relaxing music but I know that is not enough, I am always thinking when is the next Panic attack will happen again and I try to avoid certain things that might trigger them but I know that is not the solution, I want to be panic free again, Its true that life is difficult but YOU ARE NOT GOING CRAZY, Its just a response to stress and you gotta take things easy, I know its hard or almost impossible when your mind start wondering whats wrong with your head, I would suggest starting a therapy since (that is what im going to do) this is something that you can actually control, meditation, relaxation, talk to someone that cares about you, because even when you thing you are alone, well you are not, and If you need someone to talk to I am here to listen, I am not a professional or anything in this subject but well here I am, ENJOY LIFE, BECAUSE THERE IS JUST 1 AND YOU LIVE IT ONCE, LOVE IT AND BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT, IT COULD BE A LOT WORST. Best
C
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I am 21, male, and this all started about a month ago. The first time I felt a deep sense of dread was when I saw a picture of the infamous serial killer Gacy. In a second I felt something I can only describe as something not me, something I thought was impending insanity approached my mind and it frightened me, it terrified me. My biggest fear is losing control or losing my mind completely and becoming a psychotic killer. I feel overanalytical, paranoid and sometimes as if the world around me is in some way false. I will take extra note of deja vu feelings, and generally anything that feel the slightest bit off.
There are moments where I feel great, and I know that this problem is nothing to worry about, I know that I am sound of mind and that everything will be alright. But sometimes my mind convinces me otherwise, as if my breaking point will be any second at any time and I hate it, especially if it messes up my attempts to sleep.
I used to watch and read creepypasta and horror game walkthroughs; I was intrigued and I loved it even. But now I can't watch them out of deep fear they'll cause a chain reaction of thoughts in my head which will result in a permanent psychological meltdown, becoming a broken machine of a man with nothing but a psychotic desire to hurt, impale, stab and maim the people I love.
I believe it is worth mentioning that the story I had read the day before this fear surfaced for the first time was called Jeff The Killer (If terrifying faces and creepy stories scare you, do not look this story up, please.) The gist of it is this: Jeff and his brother goes to school, waiting for the bus. They then are attacked by two bullies, and he fights back violently. The bullies return and eventually Jeff is set on fire. He wakes up later, he goes insane and murders his parents, attempting to kill his brother too.
Just writing that part makes me feel extremely uncomfortable, I must add.
In terms of alcohol and drugs, I have never used any drug before ever, and I don't drink often. I used to drink 1 to 3 cups of coffee a day.
There is no history in my family of insanity or psychosis (My worries convince me that I may be the first; it has to start somewhere), however, my mother tells me that hypochondria is apparently a thing in my family so if I'm fortunate, it's only a period of that.
I rarely get physically sick but if it helps, not long before it started I began feeling symptoms of loss of bladder control, I was on a boat, I had just urinated before we left and less than 20 minutes later I feel an intense need to do so again. Could this be related?
Triggers seem to include anything which is random (Stuff that doesn't make sense, Japanese pop culture really doesn't help, lol), has a hint or reference to madness, any kind of knifeshort blade (Swords are fine), mind control or references to mind control, the name Jeff as it reminds me of that creepypasta story, the words 'killer', 'slaughter', 'murder', 'kill', 'serial killer', 'insane' and so on and any face which I find creepy or in any way off (Uncanny Valley). Also if I make any joke that has anything to do with killing or death like that, I will feel extremely uncomfortable afterwards.
I often consider that what I feel I'm fending off is not insanity, but an impending panic attack and emotionalnervous breakdown. Is this true for most people here?
Also, I don't have the best self image and sometimes have brief periods of self loathing and feeling that my friends are all moving ahead in their lives while I sit still, sometimes even going back, and that depresses me. Although I am not a very depressed person, I do have my moments. In fact, I've had several emotional breakdowns since this started and although I have suicidal thoughts, I do Not have suicidal tendencies or urges. I have often though considered to cripple myself or worse if I feel this is genuinely what I fear it is, just so the people around me would be safe from me.
I had a girlfriend whom most would classify a drama queen, she would guilt trip me often and be upset over everything. I try to be a nice guy at any and all occasions so I would constantly attempt to cheer her up, not always working though, making things worse and I feel a great sense of relief now that we've broken up. I've often wondered if she was the cause of this (My friends commented that while we were together for 6 months, 80% of it long distance, I spent all my free time on the PC, skyping all day and generally being unsocial for extended periods of time, generally trying to please my 'queen')
I apologize for all the text and I hope to get a reply soon, thanks for reading ^^
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it just started for me and it is terrible,,, i have to go for a run when it happens and really burn myself out,, it seems to work but im not sure yet till it happens again
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I have the same thing but though I had a fever and I've been stressed out with this thing in my throat I feel like I'm going crazy and I'm sick of it this never happened to me before I was completely normal but I'm 13 and I'm getting these panic attacks and I'm still sick help is it because I'm sick or panic attacks someone help me
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