Yea i am 16 currently is grade 10, 6'1 180 pounds, And i am gay. Thier are many factors i wanna talk about first i wanna say i am bi-polar and most of the time i am depressed, Docture gave me pills that null me out but they work Gabapentin. Anyways i am gay and no one knows it i got 3 brother which are against gays and a mother thats in denial. I trust my mom soo much shes a single mom raised all of us on her own, She told my its just a stage and to keep it quiet. my older bro 23 hates black people hates gay ppl and is a very aggressive person, but i love him he stuck up for me several of times. i hate my life at the moment christmas is coming 8 days away i stole my mom credit card bought like 100 bucks worth of stuff iam dum yes i know 3 years in a row have been hell xmas isent bright and warm i dont like it dont care for it. being depressed that much makes me miss alot of school and being gay is worse cause everyone hates gays at my school ( alternet school for the kids that got kicked out for harsh stuff) i got kicked out for skipping soo many days typical reason is being depressed and i wanna find love but i am soo depressed / Confused i am not a virgin had sec once with a girl dident really like it i went soft half way through and had to fake a oorgazm.
my main thing is i wanna look more attractive soo i dont have to seek out the person rather they find me. i give the girls around me mixed messages i am trying to be nice they think its much more i am a really sensitive guy and i know myself really good really smart its just being gay / Being bi-polar i got like no friends typically cause i am shy. i have has an experience with a guy and i really like it. i know i am gay and i wanted to know should i tell everyone even though i got all these problems i am soo confused please give me some feed back
my main thing is i wanna look more attractive soo i dont have to seek out the person rather they find me. i give the girls around me mixed messages i am trying to be nice they think its much more i am a really sensitive guy and i know myself really good really smart its just being gay / Being bi-polar i got like no friends typically cause i am shy. i have has an experience with a guy and i really like it. i know i am gay and i wanted to know should i tell everyone even though i got all these problems i am soo confused please give me some feed back
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It gets better, I promise. Keep your head down and get through school. In two years you can get out and find a better situation. Figure out a way to get a lot of exercise, it can help with the depression and make you feel better about how you look. Hang in there.
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