I know you don’t want to hear this but we can’t change our sexuality we can certainly live in denial and pretend that we are only attracted to the opposite sex.
No one just wakes up one day and decides that hey I want people that don’t even know me to hate and judge me I want to be afraid that my friends and family will disown me so I am going to turn gay. I truly believe that people are born with their sexuality and that as we grow and develop our sexuality does the same and if we are straight gay or bi it is what it is.
It is unfortunate that we live in a world where in many places a person cannot be open and honest about their sexuality.
A gay person is a complete person they can and do play sports they lead wonderful and full lives and the ones that have the courage to be open and honest about their sexuality are role models to anyone that is gay and struggling with the same concerns you are.
LGBT people are wonderful sons and daughters they can be and are perfect role models they are people that we should be proud of and they should not have to hide or live in denial about their sexuality.
A person can still be a good Christian if they are gay live their lives in a way that any religion would deem expectable and gay Christians are the ones that know how wrong it is and how much of a sin it is to judge and discriminate against someone because of their sexuality.
A lesson that most religious leaders would benefit from because they feel it is okay to discriminate, judge and promote hatred against a group of people that have done nothing wrong they are gay and there is nothing wrong with that.
You have found a woman that you love and want to share your life with; you also are attracted to guys to a certain extent. It is your choice if you have any kind of relationships with guys just because you are attracted to them it does not mean you have to have sex with them.
So if your future plans with the woman you love are truly what you want that is what to go with and just except that every now and then there will be a desire or an attraction to guys.
Your bi so what you can still be the son that your parents are proud of you can be the perfect role model for your siblings you can be that confident guy you want to be and you can have a wonderful relationship with your girl friend and being bi won’t change any of it.
It is not the LGBT people in the world that need to change it is the people that can’t accept them the way they are and for who they are that need to change.