I need some advices to choose (gay or straight)?

Hi ebisu, first off, what defines you as gay or straight or bisexual (attracted to both men and women) is not the way you act, girlish, masculine, but who you are attracted to. Are you attracted to men, women, both, not sure? Whatever the answer is is ok. It's also ok not to be sure. Some people know for sure. There is never a question. They know they are gay or they know they are straight. For others it takes much longer and can be really confusing. I thought I was a lesbian, then I got together with guys and thought I was straight. Over time i realised I am bisexual, but was married and faithful to one man for 23 years and am now going out with a man. you don't need to make a decision. See where your heart takes you. It is ok to be gay, straight or bisexual, but depending upon where you live and your culture it might not be easy being openly gay. What is important is that you are true to yourself. It is hard living a lie. Pretending to be someone you are not is really difficult and if you pretend to be straight when you are really mire interested in men you will hurt your girlfriend or wife. As for the first time you had sex, often first time sex doesn't go well. You are so worried, or over excited or nervous. It will get better over time. Lots of guys and girls go through this. I hope that helps

Thanks sally. but with our culture, openly gay is like hell. And I don't wanna be regarded as in the same group of other girlish gays. I hate that. But I really do appreciate ur reply. thank u.