I am a 16 year old struggling with weight loss. I currently weigh 125 lbs which is way to much for my frame. The weight is mainly in my stomach and it's uncomfortable. I can barely fit in my XS clothes anymore and it bothers me but I keep making the same mistakes. I use to be a pretty healthy eater and I weighed 112 lbS. And then my mom started telling me I should eat more and eat more things with sugar, I don't blame her for it but I wish she would have never have said that because I knew my relationship with sugar and it wasn't pretty. Now she tells me how I shouldn't eat so much and gives me advice but won't really help me out. I don't blame her for not helping me everyday because j go through the same motions everyday and I should be able to get a hold of myself, but it's really hard. I know it's only as hard as I make it and I seem to be making it impossible. I am uncomfortable in my own skin and don't want to do anything that would benefit me. I feel constanly judged even though I am not. I know weight shouldn't matter but I feel as though I am depriving myself of my own happiness. Nowadays I binge eat the starve myself then binge again. It's an unhealthy binge on sugary products that I know will hurt my body. But I keep doing it anyway. I want to stop but I feel helpless to doing so. Now I am leaving for the beach in four days and I am totall unprepared, I don't think I will be able to fit in my extra teeny bikinis and that makes me more upset. I know that sounds like a loud of bull but it's how I feel. If there are any helpful tips you can give me please do.