I'm young and feeling very ashamed if myself. My boyfriend and I have been together for about 4 years and he's always been rough while having sex not sure why but he has and I can't deny it I like it .. Until it hurts about a couple months ago he tore my vagina and then we stopped having sex for about a month and it would itch although I was reading about it on this website and it said when it itch its healing? Well recently we started having sex again and now my whole area to the outer line if my vaguna is tore!!! I can't help but to feel gross. I'm not sure if there's anything that can fix it now and I'm so lost