Okay so the way i have been feeling has been the same for going on two years and i think its time i speak up. I just thought i was weak and not be strong like i thought i should be. I have had a pretty hard life to say the least. I was mommy's best friend not daughter. I was touched by my cousin for 3 years straight why know one noticed. I didn't meet my dad till i was five because he decided drugs over me but its not like he made up for it for long because when we meaning mom me him and my lil brother finally got a house and settled down when i was 9 he got deported back to Germany and then when we went to live with him he chose his girlfriend over us. Anyway my life is just a long story to make it shorter ill cut to the chase the past two years i dealt with a very harsh breakup moved and all these other little things but i started losing the loud crazy and un shy girl i have always been i started staying home i sleep A LOT i have lower back pains and i hide behind my ipod a lot everything someone says i take to heart its so stupid how many times a day i almost bust in to tears everything i do i over think and everything people say to me i 100000000 ways for me to take it i dont want these feelings anymore i feel like ive lost myself i never thought to be the type to have the depression just thought i was weak and needed to push threw but last year i cut and i just dont think its a fase anymore..someone please guid me
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first of all i dont know if youve heard of the butterfly project or not but i suggest looking it up if you havnt, it actually really helps. that will help you not to cut, i know it helps but ultimatly you are still hurting yourself.
also in general if you feel the urge to cut yourself read a book or watch a movie, hell cook somthing, but whatever you do just try and distract yourself. and wit the depression, try and find somthing you want to do or that atleast piques your interest and even when you feel really out of it and diconnected, like nothing matter and cant see the point force yourself to do it. it can be little or big but set youself a goal and make sure its somthing you enjoy. i can relate to pretty much everything youve written here so if you ever want to unload message me :)
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short_stack2: it's hard not to cut, for me its like all of my emotions come out of there and I feel better for a little, but then I start again...
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Just medicine and balanced diet would be able to cure you totally. You need to smile more with your family while you can, otherwise you can raise a little family of your own. But in the mean time you need to get over from your depression. Magnesium can help you to do so. They are like MAGNESIUM MIRACLE. Just don't give up yourself.
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