Should I take depression drugs if I was suicidal???

fallen18xx199974 over a year ago

Heyy everyone im 16 and I've had depression for a while like 3 years or so I also have an anxiety disorder, I cut myself, and make myself vommit occasionally when Im feeling bad (i know train wreck here) but the cutting and that arent so frequent anywho I was feeling reallyyy reallyyy bad these past 2 week and I planed to kill myself. I woke up at 6:00 yesterday and overdosed on a few Iron pills about 15? and I drank half a bottle of childrens Advil nothing really bad happened at first just had the chills and pins and needles so I didnt tell my parents I overdose (and they never knew about the cutting btw) I just told them I didnt think it was a good idea to go to school that day since I was scared out of mind that I was going to to fall on the floor and have a seizure anytime thank god I didnt either b/c I ended up getting sick throwing up a couple of times and getting a fever but I was fine after that whole ordeal. I actually had to go to therapy latter that day which was kinda good b/c I told my therapist that I was feeling more depressed lately and what I told her what happend that morning. So we had to tell my mom about what was going on and how I was feeling. She made a psychologist appointment for tommrow to prescibe me medication (shes against meds. but she wants to help) now dont get me wrong I want to get better...but im also kinda scared. I mean obviously I semi- dont want to kill myself or else I wouldnt have told me therapist and mom I overdosed and would just try it again....but at the same time I ammm still depressed so I do still get irrational thoughts about killing myself alot. Do meds. really help??? or do you think should I go to a rehab or somthing along those lines??

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Bi Emo Slut over a year ago

Hello hun, right i no 100% how you feel. this year i took an overdose myself i took 46 tablets and ended up laying on a hopsital bed on 6 different machienes. (sorry my spelling is terrible) but i had my mam and my sister round my bed crying begging to no answer's.
My past has been f*****g sh*t if im going to be honest and it killed me... and everyday my past dragged me down.
Now and then i still do get them thoughts in the back of my head weather to do it again and take more and end my life as i no now how much it would take to end my life.
Darling it killed my family. get as much help as you can and take it all in. because when you get to the point where you are only breathing and living by machiens.. thats when it hits you. im 14. and when i was 12.. i got raped and beaten by a ex boyfriend i had a miscaidge as he killed my baby (R.I.P Mummys Little Angel) as he kicked me down the staris...
My advice would be to take the any tablets to help lift your moods. talk to people. dont hold it in.. talk to people more..
I hope this has helped in anyway... <3

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Shih Tzu215929 over a year ago

I have had a really bad 3 years. A lot happened, none of it good. I understand how you feel.

Depression gets it grip on you and you feel so miserable the thought of dying becomes attractive to you. It's not that you really want to die, you just don't want to continue feeling the way you do. I was glad to see you are seeing a therapist, that's a good start. Now that you've seen a psychologist and have been given medication, your thinking should be starting to get clearer, and the depression a little more manageable. That is exactly what the medication is for. It gets you more even and more receptive to the treatment your therapist is administering. It is extremely important that you stay on your medication and try as hard as you can to be honest with your therapist (I was proud of you for telling her/him about your overdose issue.)

I worry about you mostly because these overdose episodes, while they may not kill you (thank God), they may do serious injury to your body. Many people have suffered severe kidney damage from overdosing. I want to stress that when you get well, and you will, you want a strong, healthy body in which to enjoy your new healthy life.

I am also very concerned about your cutting. It is going to be very important for you to get to the root of this problem. The more you cut, the more scars you will carry for the rest of your life. And, once again, when you are well, you will feel ashamed of the scarring that occurred during this 'bad time' in your life.

It appears that your mom is supportive. Talk to her and let her help you get well. Include mom in your therapy so she understands what you are going through. It will aid her in know how best to 'be there for you'. You need someone who really understands what you are experiencing.

I want you to know that you can be well. You can put all this behind you. You may have some more depressive episodes in your life, but you will recognize them and address them so they don't get out of hand. I don't want to minimize your issues sweetie, but let me point out that girls your age often suffer from depression due to hormones of puberty.

Please accept all the help and tools your thereapist and psychologist offer you. I wish you only the best and will be thinking about you. God Bless You and Good Luck. Have a happy life...don't waste the precious person you are.

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