I don't know if I am... the reason I say I don't know, is because it happened so fast, became addicted to it really fast.
My senior year of high school, I made myself throw up MAYBE twice. Not sure why I did it, mainly because I ate too much of something.
Now two years later, I went on this extreme diet and excercise to lose weight, mainly because I was sick of how I looked, and I also found out my used to be fiance had said he didn't like me because of my body type... and the work out and diet wasn't working at all.
It triggered something in me, and for the past week, I've been making myself throw up about 4-5 times a day. Today I tried so hard not to let myself do it, and I still continued to do it all day. I would eat a bag of chips and chicken noodle soup and canned corn, and would run to the bath room afraid of it turning into fat and threw it up, then I would be hungry again and eat more junk and throw it up again.
It's become a routine for some reason.
Have I become bulimic? You can't become it so quickly... right?
I feel like I can't stop..., A piece of me doesn't want to stop until I get to the weight I want, and then I can start eating healthy from there, and exercise a lot.
My senior year of high school, I made myself throw up MAYBE twice. Not sure why I did it, mainly because I ate too much of something.
Now two years later, I went on this extreme diet and excercise to lose weight, mainly because I was sick of how I looked, and I also found out my used to be fiance had said he didn't like me because of my body type... and the work out and diet wasn't working at all.
It triggered something in me, and for the past week, I've been making myself throw up about 4-5 times a day. Today I tried so hard not to let myself do it, and I still continued to do it all day. I would eat a bag of chips and chicken noodle soup and canned corn, and would run to the bath room afraid of it turning into fat and threw it up, then I would be hungry again and eat more junk and throw it up again.
It's become a routine for some reason.
Have I become bulimic? You can't become it so quickly... right?
I feel like I can't stop..., A piece of me doesn't want to stop until I get to the weight I want, and then I can start eating healthy from there, and exercise a lot.
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i guess you posted this about a year ago, so it may be all behind you now. I thougth I'd reply becuase I'm recently gogin through a very similar thing. I've lost quite a bit of weight over the last half year - i was never overweight just not as slim as i wanted ot be. Now I'm there, ironically, it's suddenly come on over the past week. I'm desperate to stop, but each day I've said I will, adn I haven't. How did things work out for you?
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