Hey,
I'm 26 years old. If you knew me about a decade ago you'd know I'm one of the nicest kids you'd know. If you know me now you wouldn't believe me. I was a normal kid, happy and optimist, taking on the world. Around 17 is when I started smoking marijuana. I had a bad trip and since then I've always felt dejected. I've always struggled with issues. My parents divorced when I was in middle school, we moved around a lot, and other things. After I started smoking weed I started becoming down. And then that melancholy feeling transformed into the blues and then that turned into depression. I no longer smiled, I was so disconnected from everybody. I had this dark cloud hovering above my head that made happiness impossible. Then I went to college. I went to college across the country and I was on my own, maybe I thought it was the perfect time to start over? Anyways my depression and anxiety worsened and I was hospitalized at the end of the school year. Since then I've been in and out of the hospital just trying to pick up broken pieces that have stabbed me. I'm on medication and see a therapist weekly but it gets bad sometimes and I struggle with suicidal thoughts. My therapist knows about this. I haven't felt nearly as uncomfortable and disconnected as this than I have in all my life. I'm setting goals for myself and me and my therapist are working together to break the fog of my depression. I think I can do it.
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Hello.
You are still studying or have you got a job?
What do you like to do for fun? I know it's difficult to motivate yourself, but there must be something you do for just the sake of yourself. I like to read and that is my utmost relaxing technique. Whenever I feel down, I take a book and isolate myself from everyone else.
I know how challenging depression can be, but like that, I know that you can overcome it. You already know that is a long-term struggle, but you already started your journey.
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