Hello, for the last month i live terrible life, i can't function normally. Things that used to be so easy for me are now hard and stressful. It all started after one friday when i went to a bar and i drank couple of beers and smoked some pot, that was the day when i lost my job as well. I felt great i didnt even care i lost my job i just moved on and i had some fun. The next day, however i woke up in a terrible state of mind, i can't even describe it, maybe it's a weed hangover i don't know but it lasted for at least 4 weeks and i couldn't fix it in any way. After like one week I got some other job and i could barely do my duties, when i was talking to people in english i felt like i'm making mistakes in grammar or something, everything i did was hard for me to do, even talking with people. As soon as i was talking to people and doing some job i felt nervous, and i was going red all over my face and i was afraid not to do something stupid that everyone would laugh about after, and that went over and over i couldn't focus at all! Then after these 4 weeks let's say i felt a little better, i wasn't staring at the wall in my room for 10 minutes for no reason no more, and i started watching movies and i could focus more. Unfortunately, like 5 days ago i smoked one more time, next day - exactly the same feeling, and i still feel like this! Today i'm starting a new, great job and i have the same feelings i had before, i'm nervous as hell, i was always nervous kind of guy but this is more than nervousness, it's like i'm scared to do anything, even get on my bike to work. I'm never gonna smoke again, i know for sure weed caused this, i just think it's not for everyone and i should just wait one more month of nightmare and maybe the worst will pass. I want to sleep all the time, i'm tired, i wake up in my sleep a lot of times, i take some vitality medicines with b12 and it doesn't seem to help either. I drink coffee, it doesn't help. The only thing that seems to be helping is exercising but since i'm very tired it's hard for me to just start doing push-ups like crazy... I don't know what to do, i lost like 3 kg because i lost my apettite and it hurts me even more because i'm trying to put on some weight because i'm very skinny. I never felt like this in my entire life! I don't smoke often, i smoked like 6 times in my life, but that 2-3 last times are unforgettable. If everyone could just say that i'll be fine i'd really appriciate it!
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lol weed wd's, priceless. i think you just got a screw loose or 2. see a shrink
dont do drugs
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I am so sorry for what you are feeling, but I assure you, this will pass. I think something that will help you a lot, is go onto youtube and search bruce lipton and wayne dyer. Bruce Lipton is a cellular biologist that explains very clearly how your body works on a cellular level and how the power of thought can either make or destroy your life. Our perception is what makes "our" world. However, you and I may be in the same room with the same event and see it completely different. You perceive it one way, I perceive it differently. I once had a very brilliant man whom I marvelled at why he would even talk to me say to me, "Maria, you have the wisdom of great scholars, and I am honored to be engaged in conversation with such a brilliant person. I often wonder why do you even bother talking to me?" I was in shock, because I didn't get a phd or anything. I busted out laughing, and he assured me he wasn't joking. So I was thinking I sounded like an id**t sometimes when we were talking and he was the brilliant one, and he was thinking I was the brilliant one and he was the id**t. See how that works? When you get nervous at work or anywhere, picture yourself as someone who you admire and know would get the job done correctly and be confident. How would they do it? Then do it yourself. Go to youtube and search Bruce Lipton and Wayne Dyer, also another good thing to watch is "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrnes, the full length movie is also on youtube. I am sure everything will be great for you. Just have faith. I send loving, healing energy your way and will keep you in my prayers.
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