i know its weird and unusual but i am 23 years old. i have ocd sence my military service that was very hard to my sensitive soul, i hope someone can help me here, i an not virgin, i had sex with girlfreind but every time when i ejacuate sperm i cant stay whith my girlfreind same bed. i have to wash myself again and again. i have to watsh her washing her hand very good before i can go back to bed, i heared that one of my freinds have been with a girl in his car- than i thought that there wasnt any soap to wash his hand there and since that time i cant see this man not to toush him after he got out of his car( maybe he toushed his steering wheel before). its really bad cause even when i masterbute i have to wash myself again and again and the toillet allso. i read that sperm die after a while in the air but no one sure how long it takes. my dream is to let it go and to have sex or masterbute and just to clean my self with tissue and not to be afraid of getting someone preagnent from shaking here hand cause maybe she will go to the toillet later. help please!! i want to be normal and like my freinds