so 8 days ago i found out my doctor who has been prescribing me subutex for 4 years doesn't have a federal license, therefore i couldn't get my script...anyway I made it through what i thought to be the worst part of the detox i.e. rls, insomnia... however after the physical symptoms dissipated i noticed emotional ones arising, now i have experience depression before but nothing like this. I have felt suicidal/wanting to harm myself for the passed week, an uncontrollable depression...its hard to describe the emotion but just like drugs it controls you, the depression is controlling me. I had to drop my classes from school, thank god i haven't lost my job... i am aware that 4 years of a pharmaceutical artificially producing dopamine could have some serious side effects (depression) i just have no idea how long i will feel this way. im unable to function normally, im a mess. has anyone else experienced severe depression when coming off of subutex? i dropped at only 2mg fyi. i just want to know how long this is going to last.. :-(
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That's the thing that I think caused me to jump back into abusing suboxone...I was experiencing horrible depression when I finally made it down to a quarter if a sub every day (to every day & a half). I am at the point now where I know I've got to get off of subs forever, but I don't know how to beat the depression. How are doing now & any tips. I have to be supermom & all, so I have to get it together.
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