So, before I started my detox of Suboxone, I was SOOOO freaked out reading everyone's blogs about it and how awful it was. If you have anxiety about it, try not to read/focus on the bad ones. I've was on opiates for about 6 years, went to rehab, got on Suboxone, which I've been taking about 5 years....all in all, 11 years of some sort of opiate!!!! Here are some points I wanted to make it about:
1.) Yes, it's very uncomfortable for the first few days. However, if women can go through childbirth, we can get through being sick for a little while. Make sure you have a solid support system in place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! People who will stick by you and get you out of your head a little bit.
2.) DO IT UNDER A DR. SUPERVISION! ON Suboxone.com they can refer you to someone, but fork out the money one way or another cuz it will make the biggest difference!!! If there's anything that you should be spending your $ on, it's this! AN ADDICTIONOLOGIST!!! I've had a lot of judgment passed by just regular old doctors, and I"M SICK OF IT!
3.) Everyone is DIFFERENT! There is not enough information about suboxone, about the symptoms you will feel, or how long it will last. It depends how long you've been on it, what dosing, and just your immune system in general. I was on 6mg for about 5 years, and before that, about 30-40 vicodin/day.
***4.) TO MAKE IT THE MOST COMFORTABLE, YOU WILL NEED YOUR DR. TO PRESCRIBE YOU MEDS FOR THE SYMPTOMS. I was originally prescribed Seroquil, Clonodine, and Requip (for restless legs). Seroquil was giving me restless legs, so I switched to Trazedone. During day 2-4, those meds just weren't cutting it (I felt like I was crawling out of my skin, like spiders under my skin that couldn't get out). My dr. then put me on Valium (if you're an addict, BE CAREFUL and have someone help you monitor it). The Valium WORKS WONDERS! Most of all, it relieves my anxiety, depression, and most of all, the creepy crawlies in my legs!! Just make sure it's monitored by a dr./partner/someone else....you don't want to get addicted to that!
5.) If you can, take a week off work. Your health is #1! Plus, you are no good to anyone else if you're sick. My first day off was a Friday, (I worked, but it was hard, but could still function)...then I had Friday through the following Sunday to do absolutely NOTHING but lay in bed and watch movies, and take baths. I told my work I was going to be out of town, left a message on my cell phone & email, so I didn't have any obligations. It's boring as hell, but just make sure you are stocked up with lots of movies.
6.) Have someone who can check in on you, and if possible, take care of you and your household chores (that would be my husband). He works though so I just have to live with the fact that my house is destroyed for a little bit.
7.) Be POSITIVE! That's why reading some of the negative blogs can actually make you feel worse, because it scares the hell out of you (as it did for me)....the fear of the unknown was probably worse than the actual withdrawal. Just remember, you WILL get through it! Think about 5 years ago, and HOW fast 5 years goes by....even in a year from now, this will be a distant memory. YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT!!!! I just keep telling myself that.
My experience: I weaned down to about 0.2mg by the time I was getting off it. With the new films, it makes it extremely easy to cut up really small. I was SO anxious about how it was going to be, and I kept picturing the Trainspotting scene where he gets handcuffed to the bathroom sink. Ugh.....but you can't even compare it to that....it's not like that at all!
Day 1: I was really agitated, and wanted to ram into all the bad drivers out there....I slept terribly because of SEVERE restless legs. BUT, the next day my only job was to lay in bed and watch movies, so it was fine. The restless legs have been my absolute worst symptom! Baths really help, and my husband took me to reflexology which helped.
Day 2-3: By far the worst because the half-life is roughly 37 hours, so my dr. said that's when people have the hardest time is between 37-72 hours. Then, you'll slowly but steadily start feeling better.
Day 4: Getting better, restless legs are still bad, but I'm trying to keep it under control by staying on top of my meds.
Day 5-7: Just feel like the flu, but steadily getting better.
MY symptoms (doesn't mean it will be yours - I have been on it for A LONG TIME): Basically, FOR ME, it feels like I have a pretty bad flu. I definitely can't drive, just really out of it, and can't move very well. So, for the people who say "work out" or "run", I say HA! I'm a runner normally, and can barely even walk down my stairs. The restless legs are killer but there are meds that can help for that. Sleeping is hard sometimes, but I have the rest of the day to do nothing. I cried a lot the first couple days, a little emotional, but my husband is INCREDIBLY supportive and always says the right thing, or I call my dr who gives me a pep talk!
I'll leave you with a text my friend wrote me, she said it all perfectly:
"Just don't psych/stress yourself out...the human mind is very powerful. It can heal and it can make you even more sick! Stay positive, don't stress about how long, just think about cleansing your body. I know you feel like you've tripped and fallen, but the finish line is right there, focus on it, and get there even if you have to crawl across that line!! You are SO much stronger than you realize!"
ONCE YOU GO THROUGH IT NOW, YOU ARE DONE FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! You will NEVER need to go through it again!!!!!