i have so many issues

i am constantly depressed and i think about death and even dream about making love to dead girls

and if thats not ****ed up enough for you, i will tell you this

i get very angry very easily and i show my ugly immature side

i am usually very quiet and shy but when i get mad, oh boy dont get me started i will turn your world upside down

also i cannot connect with people, when girls talk to me and i know they find me attractive, some of them do,

i dun wanna listen to their bull****, when she is done talking and she expects me to talk back, i don't say anything because

i can't think of anything, so level with me ppl

wtf is the matter with me? am i a true failed creation in god's eyes? i am a good looking kid, honestly i am but

my personality, brrrrrrrr......even i say f*** that! lol

so wtf is wrong with me? any expert opinions?