I have been on multiple antidepressants for the past 4 years and have gained a total of 50 kg or 110 lbs over this period. I had panic attacks, obsessive thoughts, depression.. you name it. The thing is neither I nor my several doctors could figure out what triggered it this time.
The last time this happened i was 22 and it I had gained 30 kg on the medication but managed to lose them all in 2 years after getting of the meds. Life was great for a while until it all happened all over again.
This time however I can't seem to lose the weight no matter what I do. I'm off the medication (Celexa, Geodon and lamictal) but can't shake the weight. I'm tired all the time, depressed because of how i look and all the ugly stretchmarks i have now. I feel like i even look older. Im 31 now and i feel like my life is just slowly slipping away. I'm constantly starving even though i'm off the meds and all i wanna do is watch tv or sleep.
I barely go out because if i hear someone say "omg what happened?" one more time i'm gonna explode.
I used to be so pretty, perfect body and very self confident. Now i feel angry at the world for pulling the rug from underneath my feet like that. I feel ugly. I cry when I look in the mirror.
Eventhough i feel better now in terms of the anxiety and depression, its hard to enjoy it when i feel like the meds have created a whole new problem for me to deal with (weight loss).
I don't even know where to start and just accepting this new body is such a depressing thought to me. I feel heavy, tired and out of breath. I just want my life back.
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i got u,,,, been doing this for a month, 2 hamburger patties a day with cheese on them with some sliced pickles, dont eat after five, DRINK WATER alot of water, you dont need to work out, lost 35 pounds as of today today makes day thirty good luck
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