I have read all of your stories. My heart goes to all of you who suffer, and congrats to those who over come this horrible habit. As for me, I took my last pill today, not saying I intended to. But I ran out. And It will be a week before I get more. I have gone through withdraw before, but here recently I have taken more and more. I have even gotten as high as Roxicodone 30mg. But then I came back down. I go through a bottle of 120 in a week. I know I have an addiction, and now I have a problem. I am going to withdraw without help. I have sleeping meds I plan to take. I am prescribed xanax and clonopin, but I do not have anymore. I am bipolar, and have had gastric bypass so taking other forms of OTC pain meds is risky. The reason I am on them is I have Fibromyalgia, a bulging disc, and 2 discs with arthritis. And it seems the more weight I lose the more I hurt. I had gone from 340 to now 190. But, quite simply put, I am addicted. And I am not sure I am ready to kick the habit just yet. I just dont want to take as much, and I want to be able to make it through this week. One time not too long ago I was on day 3 of coming off my meds, due to using too many of them, and I ended up in the ER with severe back pain. Of course they gave me nothing. But I remember that the pain is magnified 10 fold. I dont know what to do. I am terrified that I wont be able to make it this week. This is going to be terrible for me. I don't like drinking alcohol and I can't due to my new stomach. I can't afford to go see another doctor for rehab. Right now I am living poor. Living pay check to pay check. And the pay checks are slim. I pray that I can do this. Im scared. But I do know that on Monday a week away I will have more after a weeks worth of detox, and my brain is going to go nuts til then. I never use to be addicted to them, it wasnt until after my bypass did I become addicted. I used to take hydrocodone 7.5 500 and still had a lot left over. No big deal to quit. Now, I eat them like candy, if I feel one doesnt work I eat another until I feel something. Its insane. And I feel insane. So what do I do? I dont want to die over this. And I know that a week is the longest I have ever gone in a long time without anything. To be honest I wish I never started. I wish I never was on them. But needless to say I do need something for my pain. So what a horrible catch 22 I have put myself in? Any suggestions on how to do this myself for a week? Would sleeping it off help? That is what I was planning to do. SO please someone help.
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hello i am jasmin i am 21 look i know it might be hard for you i am a foster because we are seeking to adopt i havent been able to get pregnant its so stressing i haven't got my period since june so we got in foster care since last year i have seen this kids go through a lot their parents are drugatics and its hard for them to leave them and its always the people around you that suffer the most but to tell you the truth you are never going to leave if you dont put your life in Gods hands he will heal all your sickness he will never leave his child alone i have been a seventh day adventist my whole live and i give thanks to God because i never fell into drugs and i have never been in the hospital just for check ups he never leaves me not even in the bad or in the best days in my life i always give thanks for the good and for the bad every person in this world God send them for a reason and he will always send his word when someone is in need of him go to him he will be waiting with his arms open no matter in what sercumstances you are in
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