Hi , im 21 and ive been drinking exsessively and have been addicted to many substances since I was about 15. when i was nineteen i quit doing drugs, but in order to cope i hit the bottle very hard. Just 64 days ago i quit drinking. I am severely depressed and every day is a struggle, to get out of bed and even to go to bed, to hold down a job, to walk down the street. everything, everything still very difficult for me. I think since i went straight to the bottle after drugs that i am only now dealing with my problems from years and years ago. I would like to know how long this will last , will i ever feel content?. I am becoming obsessed with the thoughts of drinking. I just want my thoughts to go quiet. when i try to get my thoughts out , it doesn't come out right and i get confused. is there anything i can do to organize my thoughts and recovery process so i can find some peace?, and maybe somethings i could do to speed up the process. my father is a recovering alcoholic and hasn't drank in many many years, and he is not ok still. I am afraid i will never be ok just like him. will life aways be a constant battle with alcohol for me? even if im not drinking?