I have known that I am a lesbian for a few years now, and I know that I am for a fact. I am attracted, sexually and emotionally, to girls and not guys. However, for the past 4 months, I have been in a relationship with a man. I told him right off the bat that I was a lesbian and am in no way attracted to him. Even so, we began hanging out and making out for awhile. His feelings started climbing, while mine never moved. I saw him as no more than an aquaintance who I made out with. But it was still weird, and I had no idea why. 2 months into the relationship we started having sex. At first I felt no pleasure at all, while our sex made him the happiest man in the world. I still wasn't attracted to him, and I told him this. I would only had sex with him because I wanted him to be happy and enjoy himself.
The last month (about), however, things have drastically changed. Both in our relationship and in my feelings toward him. My sexual attraction towards him began and increased, and so did my pleasure both in intercourse and in having him around. I've grown to legitimately love this man, and it's confusing because I would still identify myself as a lesbian. I also have been having thoughts, fantasies, of having a girlfriend, but also still having my boyfriend. A three-way relationship, not just a three-some. And he thinks about it, too.
I don't know, I am just pretty confused over here and it would be nice to read some comments/advice.
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Well maybe you genuinely care or even love this man. Maybe its just me ,but i think you love who you love.. Regardless if they're a boy or girl. I mean you must have cared about him enough to put your own desires aside for his at first, right? Cause it sounds like you entered the relationship with the expectations of no gratification for yourself but only for your partner. :) Anyways in my opinion (which you do not have to listen to) i think you should just (as cheesy as it might sound) follow your heart. Love shouldn't be something that has limitations. So don't be too focused on identifying your sexual preferences and identification and maybe try to focus on how your starting to feel for this guy. The same way he's felt about you from the start :) <-- ( i see this is god news! two people who both feel the same way )Anyways i hope i could have been of some help.And if you totally disagree with my POV and you hate my opinions then please feel free to ignore me and carry on ;)
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