Considering giving up on the Suboxone?

After reading many of these posts, it has become clear, and I say this as an experienced abuser of pain meds and Suoxone, that most people are scared (it's really your mind that is scared) of withdrawal going from pain meds to Suboxone. I am on my second round of Suboxone to become free from pain meds. The first time I was put on Suboxone I had absolutely no withdrawals. I was successful in weaning myself off in 1 week. That's right, 1 week. I was CLEAN for 4 months. Before I went on Subuxone this first time, I was taking up to 15, 10mg Hydrocodone's a day, for 3 years, while sometimes mixing in oxy's or whatever I could find. Well, I wasn't successful in reamining clean, so I started taking pain meds again about 9 months ago, under the care of a physician this time. (The first time was buying illegal and taking my husbands meds.) Now I've lost my health care benefits and will not be able to afford the pain meds. This second time around I've eased myself into the suboxone with only 6 hours between the last Hydrocone and the first 8mg - 2mg Suboxone. Same result as the first time.......no withdrawals. I consider myself a HEAVY pain med abuser. I would think that if anyone was going to suffer withdrawal it would be me. Because if what I have read here on these posts and because of what I have experienced, it's become clear to me that you HAVE TO WANT TO become pill free. Your mind is a powerful thing. You must control your mind not let it control you. I have faith in each and everyone of you that want to become pain med free. As I'm sure you all know, it's a powerful medication that really takes hold of every aspect of your life. If you are considering giving up on the Suboxone, DON'T! It does work.......I know........I've done it twice.