I'm 34 and have been diagnosed with PAN for a year and a half now, and I'm struggling with the thought of never getting pregnant. It's something I've always wanted, just hadn't felt timing was right, dealt with a divorce, etc. Of course I'll consider adopting- my brother and sister are both adopted, and I love them to pieces. It's just really hard to give up the dream that I've always had of carrying my own child. The study that says only 15 PAN pregnancies have been reported, with only 11 positive outcomes, scares me to death. Wondering how all of you have dealt with this.