Finally! Answers! And I Am No Longer Alone!!!

I am 36 years old and the mom of 3 children. After the birth of my third child in 2004, I decided to have my tubes tied. I had always had cramps when I had my period but NOTHING like what happened to me after the tubal. And it keeps getting worse. I now go through the following: a few days before my period I feel like a muscle has been pulled in my left side/hip/thigh area to the point i can barely get up out of a chair or walk. I have cramps so bad I can't do anything but lay around. This has put me in the ER and the pain was so bad they shot me up with morphine. I bleed so bad that I can fill a super plus tampon within an hour and almost pass out from it. I often have bouts of what my doctor diagnoses as vertigo. This has put me in the ER many times and dropped me on my rear more times than I can count. I have outbursts of rage. I seclude myself from my family. I HATE the man I have been with for 13 years (NOT my hubby - only my BF). The thought of a kiss, hug and especially sex makes me sick. I can cry over the slightest thing. I some days feel like my skin is going to crawl off of me. Some days I can't sit still because my anxiety level is so high. Other days I don't even want to move. My house is suffering from neglect and it bugs the hell out of me, yet at the same time I could care less. I have hot flashes, night sweats, can't sleep through the night EVER. I have problems with bowel movements and am lucky if I go twice a week. Then about once a month I get killer "poop cramps" as I call them and raging diarrhea. And ALL of this started AFTER I had my tubes tied. I talked to my doctor about it. I told her my periods got worse after my tubal and I had all the symptoms of menopause. She told me I was too young for that and that the tubal had nothing to do with it. My last pap was last October and I DEMANDED blood work to check my hormone levels. She told me that the blood work didn't really tell anything any way. I called 2 gynecologists. One needed a referral and would take me months to get into. The other just had a 7 month waiting list. The third one I called just has a waiting list that puts me in appointments DURING my period which I REFUSE to do. Pelvic exams are humiliating enough without the added factor. I have an appointment at my doctor in the morning. I just found out about this TLS and I am printing ALL of the info I have found and am sticking it in her face.

One final note. My doctor has tried to blame this on my being bi-polar and having anxiety and depression issues already. Having dealt with these issues for 17, almost 18 years now, I KNOW what they feel like and I KNOW what these newer symptoms feel like and they ARE NOT the same. They are similar, yes, but the ones that came after the tubal are much more intense and harder to live with. It is sad to know that I could actually LIVE with a mental illness that I could CONTROL it.

I don't feel that I can control this TLS thing. I REFUSE HRT. I am at higher risk for breast cancer and already get annual mammograms and HRT heightens cancer risks. I feel that this is so out of my hands now. I feel alone in this world and that I am a lost cause here.