getting off codine at last

Hi. I was once a silly teenager and at 17 back in 1997 i got involved in heroin and ended up injecting for 4years with a 2 and a half prison sentence to finish it off.not something im at all proud of but the prison sentence was the best thing that could of happend to me.it got me off the smack and ive been off it for 12years now.i moved away and started a new life.settled down.i work.i have a family now.and to go with it,a codine addiction.like any addiction i never set out to get myself into trouble.i had never seen used or heard of cocodamol before but about 8 years ago i had a major headache one day and my at the time partner said take 2 of these.they did the job but they also gave me a very slight feeling of that evil drug i use to stick in my veins all those years ago.it was nice.it was a blast from the past and it was just headache tablets.cheap over the counter pills that were harmless and legal.nothing wrong with that.so i took some more.and some more.it was that feeling(well similar)i use to get but this way wasnt causing any harm to anyone. I abused it for a day and left it.a day or 2 later i found myself in the chemist asking for a couple of boxes and i was refused both boxes.i could only purchase one.and the assistant then explained the dangers of addiction they can cause.stupidly i thought i knew better.i had never heard of anyone getting addicted to headache tablets.not once did it occur to me that cocodamol wasnt just for headaches.they are pain killers and millions of people world wide are addicted to pain killers.but i didnt really know much about that at the time.so i chose to ignore the assistant and started taking them.but even though it was only the second time i'd tried them,i found i need a few more to get that buzz again.it wasnt long before i was goin from chemist to chemist daily.as days turned to weeks and weeks into months.now it has turned into years.i am recognised in every chemist in my area.my girlfriend is fully aware of my problem.she hates what im doing to myself but she does sometimes go into the chemist for me if im known by the member of staff working at that time.not because she wants me to continue using but because of the withdrawels i feel when i have no pills left.it stopped being about the buzz years ago.that was when i realised how much i had messed up thinking i was big and clever.addicition is like cancer.it does not care about age.sex.race. It starts small and soon takes over your whole life.i am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I spend every day thinking "sh*t,i need to take a trip to the pharmacy". But having to plan which one i havnt been to for a while and see whos behind the counter and what BS story im gonna come out with this time is getting old. Trying to make sure theirs always enough money for my tablets through the month.getting my partner to go in chemists for me because this person or that person wont serve me.waking up with stomatch ache,hot and cold sweats,feeling sick,having the sh**s every single morning.is it really f*****g worth it.if i can put half as much effort into gettin off these bastard little things as i do trying to get some i will succeed with my cold turkey.which i am begining tomorrow morning. With a good supply of lopermide,buscapan,night nurse, ibuprohen and paracetamols and a few zoperclones for days 3and4 im finally ready and wanting to get off this sh*t. Anyone who thinks a cheap box of cocodamols isnt a real drug and wont mess them up is so very wrong.the party quickly comes to an end but the aftermath continues a great deal longer.my advice dont take them in the first place.