When i was young i had no issues with my health until i went into hospital for a 'routine'circumsion op aged 7 or 8.During this 'op'whilst anethatised i recall waking up in agony,and a nurse restraining me whilst they sewed up my penis.The recovery took a month in hospital or so i thought(i remember hot baths being agony).Years later i have been told i was in and out in a weekend! and the operation went o.k (in the surgeon's opinion).He has since died and the only one who believes i woke up is me!i remember the agony.Several years passed and despite some nasty scar tissue i was able to perform sexually alone(masturbation) and with intercourse(i fathered two healthy children).My mother told me i wasn't the same after the operation.
.At 17 however i began to have panic attacks in driving lessons and during a office type work environment(stress full situatuions)Eventually i was diagnosed with i.b.s(i had endoscopy first etc)as i suffer from loose stools,nerves etc and take imodium to supress this.Then i found i was sexually disfunctunal with my wife and couldn't keep my erection for more than a few seconds,this has caused me to become depressed.Is it possible for this 'false memory'after the operation to be the cause of my sexual disfunction? or is it a totally seperate issue and is the fact that i can still orgasm alone a mere indicator that it's my failure to be sexually relaxed in company?help would be appreciated as i am finding myself obessed by my sexual needs and failure to gratify them.I am currently on a beta-blocker(have slightly high bp)and a cholestrol lowering tablet in addition to a mild anti-depressive tablet.