I'm 33 yrs. It was in 2011 when I first tried an oxy 80...... Slowly and gradually I would take them now and then. Then I ended up losing my place and my children......after that I started using more. That was around the same time I meet someone who was a heroin user. We got together and started sniffing the pills. We were doing together by summer 5 80mg each. I didn't like it. So I left him for awhile, but the withdrawals were hell. I ended up going back to him on and off. By Dec. I wanted my life to change. In Jan.2012 I ran into the same guy, and I was taking hydro morphine 24mg. About 2-3 a day. Anyways, when I ran into the guy, he told me he was into hydro morphine. He told me there was a way better high then taking them the proper way. This was the first time I shot up. I was very disgusted with myself and with him. I was like this for about 6 weeks.....then I went to detox. Then rehab in May. I completed my 42 day program....June 2012. However I relapsed again by August.....and got back into the needles in November 2012. I really am very hard on myself, and I am grateful that I found this forum.........I'm scared of the withdrawals, but I am praying hard and have the desire to quit again. I'm going took go back to rehab, then a recovery house......I now know I can't do this on my own. When I finished treatment the first time,I thought I was going to make it. I got to let my best friend go though because she is a person who is dependent on opiates for medical reasons, and she gives them to me if I asked. I pray I get back into treatment and the rest of my life back. I miss my kids, and my common law doesn't know. I'm to ashamed to tell him. I'm going to be going through withdrawals and I'm scared......thank you for listening.