mom in need of answers

my 9yr old was taking adderal and the school said he had made a over night change and that he was a diffrent kid his grades went up and he was still in his chair doing his work hanging on every word at home he had changed as well her idea of A+ child was my neg.-19 lbsnever moved unless running to the bathroom every 20 min. if he makes it! un happy angrey wishing he was dead and yelling it out child....That i didnt know my loud wild happy little 9 yr old who said the most crazy things was druged inside of his on self and i did it 2 him every am before school so i took him off the meds and every thing is normal again he picked up his wgt and was getting notes from his teacher pleading me to put him back on meds.. only he still runs for the bathroom every 20 - 30 mins my 9 yr old who i had potty trained about the time he could walk need me to get wipes and help him This is killing me to see him suffer and hes so ashamed... I wonder to my self whats he doing at school ???? and will it stop i ask the Doc. he has NO! answers and Iam blaming myself we as parents make the final choice for our childrens medical & meds. so please if any one knows what is going on or how to stop this please let me know iam lost for answers *(oh i did find boy scouts and a little more tlc work great for slowing them down and as for showing off try not telling them 100000 times to stop or else just get to the or else part. it will amaze you at how his hearing will improve