This is going to sound bad - it sounds bad in my head - but I'm really on the verge of leaving my family.

My children are 14 months and 2 years. They are beautiful and, for the most part, very well behaved. My husband wors abroad and if we are lucky we get to see him maybe two times a year. I don't trust him and I resent his lifestyle - he will go off to the hot springs to relax or go out to dinner. The last time i went out was to dinner for my birthday and I had to take my babies with me. He gets to do anything and everything he wants to do. I can't even have a bath in the evening as the running water wakes up my son and then he screams to go in the bath. I recently moved in the area I live in now, and no one has anything to do with me. The baby groups are too far for me to get to (I don't drive and have no money to get lessons). Childcare is far too expensive in my area (it would cost